I'll Be Fine (pt. 2 of 2)

community building

i want to ask any of you, just a question
you can comment or you can answer with your mind
is it not okay to try and get rid of the diseases
within the trans and lgbtq communities?
not that they're much separated
but im not gatekeeping, and instead a bit questioning what people think
when i try to confirm it
because someone told me
1 month of thinking you're bi,
and then back to "normal"
3 months questioning if you're trans,
then back to "normal"
it just doesn't seem much real to me
im all for experimentation
im all for finding out what you are
through trial, error, and research
but if your trans "experience" is 3 months
were you really trans? or were you just
trying to get into the "minds of transpeople"
you sound like _kitty_kims
it's not like you can just go back to what you were doing before
i don't want to gatekeep
however, my experience was years of pain
3 years of bisexuality
into undiscovered, now uncovered pansexuality
while my trans experience was not sure what i really was for a year
and after that, i identified as nonbinary
and soon there after, i started using she/they, with a femme side to me being enby
and furthermore finally going full and realizing it all
and being a trans girl today
my whole experience took 4 years
and longer for my sexuality
so unless you're so utterly focused on your issues
which, not many 15 year olds are so focused on getting their business done,
you're not trans and you probably never were.
i don't care who i offend, the only ones that will be offended are those that aren't real and are living such a simple lie, trying to pretend they're so hip and cool by "having been trans one time."
this isn't some debate, this isn't negotiable
this is what you need in order to be trans
gender dysphoria.
you can't just think and decide one day you are or aren't.
you're a fucking prick if you do, and your experience with such should be shamed as nothing more than a blemish on the mark we as a community have worked so hard to try to preserve, despite all the slander being given to these insignificant people that only ruin that of our own image.
fuck all of you, that use neopronouns, xenogenders, and use the trans experience as a way to be shown more respect, more love, and to fill the void either your mother or your father never did, because you're delusional, you're irrational, and you're furthermore declared insane by all that stand by the fundamentals of gender and expression.

to add onto this, i have to say, people like Nex Benedict are who we are protecting.
these are the people we want to protect from harrasment, bullying, being openly beat up.
not only with the advent of online communications, but with the rise of pure anti-lgbtq sentiment throughout many states, the sight of the states is absolutely abhorrent. noone in power seems to care. not a single one. and that's why we have to keep our community safe and free from those mocking us and getting the same "privileges," if you can call them that, as a result of being trans, gay, lesbian, bisexual, pansexual, aro or ace. it'd become a cesspool of insignificant ramblings and people wanting to spend time in the limelight over recent events, or possibly just to try and "fit in," even in a manner that is making them stand out more. in actuality, it doesn't matter what they think, do, want, or have done, because it's an act to them. what does it matter if they break character a few times? it's all just a play of make believe in the era of personal refinement and betterment. everything we do to be better people, better friends, better souls, better listeners, better workers, better human beings, and all because they're figuring themselves out, they pass to the untrained eye. they're appearing to be spending their due diligence on making sure nothing is out of place or feels wrong, while a few months later, it's almost as thought not a single thought crossed their mind in this period. they just play games and never truly believe in what they put on for show and tell.

and this, this is exactly why i want to do this removal of fake trans people, and an investigation of the people who are "experimental with their sexuality" for such a short time. if my process took years, yours will most likely take more than 6 months, unless it's painfully obvious. and yes, i stand by questioning those trans that don't have much experience, because it's better to figure out that they're confused than rather shun them from the existence of our community. this can't be purging, as this will also give us a terrible look. we just need to find how to get rid of the scum from our paths. this is why i advocate for standing up and being together with your trans friends, and being a beacon of light in this time of dreary hope. we stand together, we won't ever fall, and we'll always be strong to give the people a show they won't soon forget, because if we need to fight, we should all fight, together as a unit. this is singlehandedly how i think about this, and i believe in it entirely. i believe in us, i believe in myself, and id die for a chance at giving us the power and ability to live life to the fullest.
trans people matter, but if you make genders and pronouns up, i have no respect for you, and you deserve to die. for the last thing i have to say: you are physically making our lives worse and the punishment on our existence harsher, as you give them a reason to hate us, as is most likely the point of what you do and say. you deserve nothing but death if you intend to get us killed. and now for those that stand with me on this, rest in power Nex Benedict.