Shameless, Only For Him

Fifteen

Kaarmugil

I can't wait to meet my parents!

I'm going to give them a surprise visit and break the happy news to them. Years of hard work have finally earned me a job. I've been recruited by one of the best aerospace companies in Bangalore.

I'm genuinely pleased and the fact that it's been so long since I experienced that feeling had me become sentimental.

I've always been lost in thoughts...and invisible to the people around me. I blamed myself for it. Perhaps If I talked actively and shattered my silent nature, people would have thrown me attention and shown me love. It was depressing when I was a teen but I'd accepted myself and remained quiet as I always had been.

It was peaceful and I started focusing on my career when all other aspects of my life were damaged. Being quiet was a curse to me in my teen years. I had difficulty in finding friends and even If I found one or two, I couldn't make them stay.

No one was ready to sit with me and share my silence. It had me despise myself more until he loved me for who I am.

My Puvi, the one I've been crushing on since my childhood. He and my elder brother, Trivikaram, spent most of their time playing and pampering my little sister that I'd felt left out and pitiful...

Though I know they love me equally, the care everyone showers on her had me long for such kind of love. Fortunately, I've grown out of that phase. The little one is dear to me now. She's stubborn and has a loud mouth but she's my little sister after all. How could I be jealous
of her?

It was funny when I actually did get jealous of her. It was in my childhood when my father would carry her around in his arms instead of me. It was when I'd been asked to be considerate and sacrifice everything I love to her. I reckoned my parents didn't love me enough when they had me give everything I wanted and craved to her.

We had the same taste in almost everything even though our characters were poles apart.

She's always wanted what I liked.

She would make a huge scene and bawl her eyes out until she got her hands on what she desired. I still remember the incident where I'd purchased a stuffed panda during my school tour and brought it home. It stole my heart at first sight and so did Dhana's when she saw it. She'd cried a whole night to snatch it from me and had fallen sick in the end. My parents then advised me to let it go and sacrifice it as she was younger than me.

I did...that was the first time I'd sacrificed something I loved the most to her.

However, after a point, when I'd matured enough, I willingly lent her everything she asked for.

Despite that, I'd now come to the realization that we have spoiled her. I could only hope she changes herself in the coming years. The last time I visited my home, she'd been arguing with my mother about not bestowing her enough pocket money even when she gets almost 8000+ from father alone. Then there's my elder brother, an archeologist, who would send her money whenever she wanted.

Mother is the only one who tries to discipline her. And I support her when I would be home...

I'm back to home!

My facial expression was neutral but inside, I was feeling ecstatic as I entered the elevator and waited for it to drop to the floor where my home was.

I am planning to reveal my relationship to my parents along with my job news. They gave us the freedom to choose our life partners but mom was strict in certain things.

She had said to be patient when it comes to love. She'd advised me to take time and be sure of my decision before jumping into a relationship.

I had numerous doubts when Puvi proposed to me. I wasn't in my right mind back then and was suspicious of his love. It's not normal to have your crush crush back on you, is it?