Shameless, Only For Him

Thirty eight

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A few days later.

Dhana Lakshmi

Unsettled—that is all I feel inside.

I couldn't give in; I couldn't bring myself to trust him again and at the same time...I couldn't help thawing at his actions and words.

I'm clueless as to what to do when it comes to him.

Yet one thing I'm certain of is that I shouldn't be very invested in him. I should study. I should raise my intellectual ability first...

The mockery and cackling of my classmates are infuriating and has me feel embarrassed. I need to put a stop to their silent bullying before being fazed by Puvi.

Thus my sole concentration was on studies these days. Today as well—in the evening, Nishanth came by to tutor me. After the stunt that Puvi
pulled the other day, I'd to give a lengthy apology to Nishanth. I told him that Puvi was just my brother's best friend who was quite over-protective of me...

However, that lie was shattered when Puvi regularly came to pick me up from the college at noon. Nishanth implored whether he was my boyfriend...I answered no but he didn't buy it. He didn't question me further either.

And I left it at that—I didn't want to talk about Puvi. He's already messing with my head and speaking more of him is only worsening my condition.

God, I should stop thinking about him...

Presently, the time is 7.45 pm and I'm listening to Nishanth as he tutors me on our subjects. While he was doing so, the door bursts open and Puvi comes in with a glass of juice.

I thought he would offer it to me or Nishanth...

However, what he did had me offer him a dumbfounded look. He sits himself on the bed and while scrolling through his phone, he sips on the juice in his hand. What is he even trying to do?

"Dhana, listen here..." I snapped my head back to Nishanth and continued to attend to his teaching. Yet in the back of my mind, Puvi's presence kept bothering me.

It only went downhill when he whistled and leaned on the headboard of the bed. He appeared cool as he scrolled through his phone.

"Dhana," I turn my attention back to Nishanth and only then I realized that I've unconsciously been distracted by Puvi.

"Could you ask him to go out? He's disturbing us," Nishanth states in a stern tone, obviously annoyed by Puvi.

I was frustrated too.

"Puvi, could you please get out of my room?" I meet his calculative eyes with an irritated look on my countenance.

"No," He continued to pay interest on his phone.

"If you don't get out now, from tomorrow onwards I'll go to Nishanth's home for tuition," that alerts him. With a strict mien, he regards me keenly.

"I dare you to do that," he sounded serious and I couldn't help but glare at his behavior. "Dhana, we can stop our session here. Ring me once you settle your issues with him," he was quick as he packed his stuff. He seems very irked.

"Nishanth, please be patient!" He doesn't listen. He rather steps out of the room without paying heed to my pleas. Tossing a grimace to the nonchalant-looking Puvi, I follow behind Nishanth...

He pauses in the living room to bid bye to my parents and he concealed the real reason for his departure from them.

"Got a call from Appa to come home earlier today. Some important guests have arrived," I acted normal as my parents nodded at Nishanth with a warm smile.

He then saunters out of the apartment door while I trail behind him to convince him. Once we were out, he turned to look at me. "I'm not stupid enough to not understand what's going on Dhana. He's your boyfriend, isn't he? And he doesn't like me tutoring you, does he?" He said it harshly and I was taken aback...

"He isn't my boyfriend Nishanth!" He smiles bitterly. "Is that why you go with him every day to have lunch?" Why does he even care about that...

"It is complicated Nishanth. But I'll talk to him. Please don't get angry..."
He gives me an 'is that so' look and speaks up, "Complicated as in?" What do I even say to him?

"That's not important now Nishanth. I'll make sure Puvi doesn't disrupt our tutoring session henceforth, just don't get indignant on me...you're the only friend I've," he remains silent.

"...will I always be your friend alone?" My heart drops to my stomach at his question. He doesn't mean it, does he?

"Yes...what else do you want to be!?" I retort, furious at noting his intention.

"...you get it, don't you?" I do and it is the reason why my stomach churns.

"You said you would be my friend..." He was unfazed by the emotions that lingered in my words. "I did. I thought I would be promoted to your boyfriend eventually. But you seem to have someone else in your life already. So tell me why should I waste my time on you?" I couldn't manage the pang in my chest. I felt betrayed all over once again...

Why...why does this keep happening to me? What sin have I done...

"...you were just acting to be my friend in the hope of being my boyfriend someday? Is that it?" He jerks his head positively.

"You will never have that privilege, it is reserved for him alone," he lends me a sour smile. "Then enjoy being alone in the class..." He twirls and ambles off whereas I just stand there numbly. I feel crushed from within...

...it's okay.

I calmed down myself and entered my home. Puvi and my father were playing chess at the dining table while mom was watching serials...

I didn't know what to do but I found myself walking up to Mom and laying my head on her lap.

As she started to brush my hair, I felt at peace and closed my eyes.

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