Shameless, Only For Him

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The main characters are so sick and toxic!!! The story has taken a different turn than how I initially planned but I like it, tho it is dark🥲💕

Kaarmugil

I didn't want to come back here but I missed my parents. I desired to be close to them...

Life has been harsh.

My job was the only thing that kept me sane throughout the expired days.
The seniors were very calm and understanding to us, newbies. Eventually, the workplace became my comfort zone.

I haven't yet made any close friends there but people were sweet. It's really hard to form a genuine and deep friendship as an adult—with an adult. Everyone seems to have been caught up with something or someone. They've their priorities fixed and most of them already have best friends and lovers. Thus, even If I'm to become someone's friend, I won't be as important to them as they are to me. Hence I refrained from building any such connections.

It was depressing...but as any other normal person—I let it bubble within me and pretended to be alright until I was surrounded by the walls of my room. Under the comfort of the bedsheet, the lap of the pillow, I let my melancholic state be known through my tears.

I wished I didn't stalk his account. I should have unfollowed him as soon as I'd let him go. It was my fault—I shouldn't have done what I'd done that day. But I didn't know what else to do while she threatened to end her life. I know her—she wouldn't hesitate before slitting her wrist If I hadn't agreed to her demand. Yet, I can't stop blaming myself. Perhaps If I hadn't gone to my home that day, I could've prevented everything.

Then again, If that didn't transpire then, I wouldn't have known that I meant nothing to Puvi. I thought he would do something to mend this issue when he asked me that day If it was Dhana. I believed he would bring an end to all of this...

But who would have thought that he would fall for her?

How could he...I'm still confused by their togetherness. Logically, If he had loved me, he should have talked her out of it. Considering her personality, she wouldn't listen to it. But If Puvi wished, he could've made her stay away from him. If I had been important to him, he wouldn't have gotten with her...instead, he would've done everything in him to get to me.

It was all a puzzle to me until I saw their picture in his story. When had he smiled so happily with me? When have we been so touchy? When had he ever kissed me? Never...

He didn't love me.

He loved her. They were in love. I was a useless side character who stood between their love. The moment I left, they became one. Why did I even exist then? What was the reason...?

Before viewing his story, I used to be very confident that Puvi would get back to me. Because obviously, he knew that it was Dhana who pushed me to instigate our break up! He knew it...he definitely did!

I know him!

And I trusted him. But I didn't know things would alter and end in this way...

What went wrong?

Maybe I should've fought more? Maybe I should've broken the promise and spilled everything out to Puvi? If I had done that, would things have turned out differently?

I'm not sure.

After seeing his lovesick pictures, I understood that I'd been living in a lie...

Whatever has happened has happened for good. He didn't love me. And I didn't want someone who wasn't in love with me.