Behind the Curtains: A Tale of Hidden Emotions

special chap

I was feeling a swirl of emotions as I settled into this short vacation. On one hand, I didn’t want to intrude on Faye’s time. Whenever we managed to carve out these moments for ourselves, I always made sure to give her plenty of space—time for her friends, her family, and, most importantly, herself.

I’ve always valued personal space, so it was only natural for me to want to give her the same consideration I give myself.

It’s been two days since we returned to Thailand from Korea, and I won’t lie—I’m missing her like crazy. I’ve been trying so hard not to reach out and bother her, so I resorted to mindlessly scrolling through my socials. But nothing could hold my attention.

"I'm so bored!" I groaned, flopping onto my bed and rolling over, hugging my pillows in frustration. My hand eventually found its way to a soft, floppy plushie.

I looked down at the cute chipmunk plushie in my arms, and suddenly, an idea popped into my head.

If I didn’t want to make the first move and bother her, I could at least nudge her into making the first move.

I’m a genius!

With that plan in mind, I quickly grabbed my phone and started filming a few videos, hoping to bait the one person who was constantly on my mind.

I was giggling to myself as I edited the videos I’d taken earlier. I chose the background music, “Cute” by Cloudee, and added a caption that read, "On energy-saving mode," complete with battery, sleeping, and bubble emojis.

As soon as I posted it, my phone practically exploded with notifications. But none of them were from the person I was hoping for.

Hours passed, and still nothing. I figured she must be really busy. Normally, we exchanged simple messages throughout the day—checking in to make sure we’d had proper meals and the like.

Earlier, she’d wished me a good lunch and asked if she could hang out with her friends. But after that, I hadn’t heard a peep from her.

I didn’t want to be clingy, but I couldn’t help it. I missed her so much. I was on the verge of giving up and going to sleep, determined to stick to my claim that I was "recharging," when my phone beeped, signaling an incoming call.

Excitement surged through me as I grabbed my phone, but my smile quickly faded when I saw the name on the screen: Jane.

With a frustrated sigh, I tossed the phone to the other side of the bed and buried my face in my chipmunk plushie, sulking.

My phone kept beeping relentlessly, only adding to my irritation. Frustrated, I grabbed it and answered the call without even glancing at the name.

"What do you want?!" I snapped, my annoyance bubbling over. I was already upset that my baby hadn’t reached out to me, and now my best friend had chosen the worst possible time to call.

There was a brief pause before a soft, familiar voice responded, "Oh, I’m sorry, baby. I’ll hang up now. Sorry for disturbing you."

My heart dropped as I realized who it was. The voice I’d been aching to hear all day. Before I could say anything, the line went dead.

"Oh gosh! You’re so stupid, Yoko!" I cursed myself, frantically redialing her number. I'm so glad when she picked up almost immediately.

"I’m so sorry, baby—" she started, but I cut her off.

"No, no. It’s okay, love. I didn’t mean to lash out at you. I just... I thought you were Jane," I explained, my words tumbling out in a rush. I could hear the hurt in her voice, and it made me feel even worse. She probably thought she’d interrupted my alone time, but that couldn’t have been further from the truth.

"You don’t need to explain. I understand," she said softly, but I could hear the sadness in her tone, making the guilt weigh even heavier on me.

"No, love, I really thought it was her. She called me earlier, and I was a bit annoyed that you hadn’t messaged me yet because I missed you so damn much...

I posted that video hoping it would nudge you to call or text me. But then she did, and this happened.... I’m really sorry, love."

The silence on the other end after I frantically explained my reason made my heart race with nerves.

"Hello? Love, are you still there?" I asked, my voice filled with anxiety. The wait felt like an eternity, but then I finally heard her soft laughter, and a smile of relief spread across my face.

"Really? You did that for me?" she asked voice filled with surprise. I could feel my cheeks flush with embarrassment. I hadn’t meant to confess my little ploy, but in my panic, the truth slipped out.

It was mortifying.

"Y—yeah," I stammered, and she giggled even more at my response.

I knew exactly where this was headed. So, I braced myself for what was coming next, and I wasn’t wrong.

"You missed me that much, hmm?" she teased, her voice playful.

See?

"And so? Haven’t you missed me?" I shot back, trying to keep my cool.

"I do..." she replied, letting the word hang in the air. I was waiting for her to say more, but what came next almost made my soul leave my body. "That’s why I’m outside your unit."

"What?!" I exclaimed, just as the doorbell rang, startling me from my spot on the bed. "Are you seriously~?!"

"Yes, baby. Now come and open the door before the food gets cold," she replied, her voice filled with warmth.

I jumped up from the bed and practically sprinted to the door. The moment I swung it open, Faye’s familiar fragrance filled the air, wrapping around me like a comforting blanket.

Without a second thought, I rushed toward her and enveloped her in a tight hug. "I missed you," I murmured, feeling the warmth of her embrace sink into my skin.

"I missed you more," she whispered back, holding me even closer.

She was truly my safe haven. Moments like this were the memories I knew I’d cherish for the rest of my life.

No matter where our journey takes us, I’ll always return to these feelings, the ones only she can evoke in me.

I can’t help but think of what Master Oogway says in the movie: all my life, I’ve been so concerned with what was and what’s yet to come, without realizing that the past is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift—that’s why it’s called the present.

That’s what Faye is to me.

She’s my gift.

My present.

And even though the future is a mystery in so many ways, I’m more than willing to embrace whatever surprises she has up her sleeve. Because I’m certain that whatever it is, it will be something I’ll treasure forever.

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Here’s another special chapter to satisfy my delusional heart for Fayeyoko. I hope it brings you as much joy as it does for me. Enjoy!

I miss them more every day.🥺🤧

They’re my daily dose of serotonin. I've never been this invested in GL actors before, but with them, it’s different.