Competition

lee

Lee's pov

I wake up a few minutes before my alarm, so I shut it off get up and head to the bathroom. I like to be proactive and start my day with intention. Immediately I start flexing in the mirror. What can I say I run track and weightlift, a good flex is part of who I am. Since I'm non binary the muscle balances out my feminine style of dress so I have to flex them. I can't help it.

I love my sports, they give me joy and are becoming such a key part of my personality. Thanks to track and weightlifting plus genetics since I've always been somewhat muscular I'm ripped ! Although YouTubers like Alyssa Coppolino, an IFFBB pro motivate me. Honestly everyone should watch her videos.

I like it, I think I look great but boys are always jealous or say I look like a man. Or they end up butt hurt when I lift more than them, run faster, or eat them in an arm wrestle. But honestly I'm a black girl we always get masculinized no matter what. Weather it be for our jaw lines, natural muscles, locs if we get them, or just our skin colors. It's a common insult black women get, that they were once ( Michelle Obama) or are a man. Even though my body and perhaps even my mind are very masculine I still wear dresses make up on occasion, lashes, nice clothing brands or whatever appeals to me.

I snap a few pictures and add them to my insta highlights. Then I see Emma added something to her story. Looks like she went on a run her ponytail and blue eyes stick out against the darkness of the photo.
She looks great, toned and all but we have different body types I'm five two, black, visibly muscular and weigh about 104 pounds. She's taller and more toned than muscular but still pretty. I like her story and get in the shower.

I love showering I can ogle my muscular thighs and abs, however I still see parts of my body I could improve. I usually end up taking a few pictures. Not to send to boys! I would never plus I like girls. It's crazy that I like my muscular thick thighs, I used to hate them .

About ten minutes later my sister comes knocking on the bathroom door.

" Lee hurry up!" Welp that showers over.

So I got out and head to my room to find something to wear. I settle on a pink thin strap dress that leaves my muscular arms out. I can already feel the compliments rolling in. I pack my track bag. Pack my lunch and mix up a protein shake before I leave for school.
A protein shake is the " norm" for my breakfast, but I don't eat anything till noon, intermittent fasting I actually really enjoy it you just have to have a pinch of control.

As I make the drive I think about me last track season vs me know, I was heavy anorexic restricting to less than 900 calories a day and very thin, still had some muscle on my arms though. That was mainly due to genetics though. But back then my things were so thin, my stomach was flat an my rid were even more prominent then they are now. I basically didn't eat anything, only packaged food so I could be sure of the exact calories, very little water, and often felt like crap.

However I'm glad I don't look like that now, I preform better. But I still restrict In some ways and I'm super picky about what I eat, everything is fruits, protein snacks, chicken, beef, an some kind of carb. But definitely a ton of calories since I workout so much. It's good calories though not fast food burgers, milkshakes, super caloricly dense cookies, tons of chip's. I still enjoy high protein versions of those things but I have balance. Just no space fore porley made fast food engeerined to make me want more.

I pull into my schools drive way, grab my stuff ( gym clothes, gym shoes , tons of protein snacks. My norm) then I see my friend Cate walking up to the doors.

" Hey Cate! " I yell out and she turns. She has been looking great as of late a bit thinner, great make up everyday and always great outfits!

" Hey Lee, want me to carry one of your bags?"

" Nope I've got it, I'll walk you to class though."

That is my Monday morning. Muscles, protein friends and workout even if I'm not actually working out at the time it still is a large focus of mine during the day.