Competition

Emma's ed

Emma's pov

It's Tuesday and just like yesterday I'm up at five and running on my treadmill. I'm taking my time and enjoying the workout but my brain is stuck on what I'm going to eat today. I know what I can and can't have but my options are slim. I run through the list in my mind

can eat :

Almond milk

Green apples

Mangos

Blueberries

Grapes

Pears

Peaches

Limes

Lettuce

Tuna

Lean beef

Dark chocolate chips

Bell peppers

Green onions

Brown rice

Green tea

Ginger tea

Marshmallows

Chocolate chips

Protein waffles

Protein oats

Protein shakes

Green smoothies

Cheese sticks

Carrots

Black berries

Seaweed

Sunkist chips

Baked chips

Zero calorie water sweeteners

Stevia not sugar

Pineapples

Cilantro

Oregano

Paprika

Pepper

Salt

Basil

Pink Himalayan salt

Onion powder

Garlic powder

Cayenne pepper

Chili pepper

Subway ( only grain bread, no cheese )

Chipotle ( no sour cream, no cheese, only one scoop of rice )

Cava

Better goods ice cream

That's my list, over time it's growing with therapy but I know my don't eat list is longer. It's not about me being scared of gaining weight it's more about those foods making me feel bad, physically emotionally and they aren't healthy. And I still feel the need to burn off a good portion of what I eat.

However I think today I'll take a page out of lee's book and pay attention to protein today, I'll have a smoothie for breakfast, 3 protein waffles for lunch , with tea and Sunkist chips on the side. And a chicken lettuce wrap for dinner. Good safe options. Speaking of lee, I'll give her a call.

I check my hair in the mirror, it's a bit sweaty but it still as a bit of curl to eat and my headband holds it all nicely. I facetime lee just I check on her. The crazy muscular, crazy confident crazy loud lee.

" Hey sexy " she says as soon as she answers.

I blush, " Hello to you to, nice outfit by the way but I wanted to ask what you were eating today"

" Thank you, today we are lulu twins but I've got on Hoka shoes also perfect timing! I'm cooking right now protein oatmeal, rice and pork/veggie wontons, maybe an air fried potato, a cookie, a cheese stick and a glass of milk. From 12-10 , why love ? "

" Well lee I'm using you for food inspiration, and I forget you like to intermittent fast. I'll be honest if I'm hungry I'm going to eat even if it's just super healthy cucumber salad fasting is not for me! " I say with shock .

" I like it, it allows me to appreciate food in the time frame i do eat. It forces me to stop and think about if what I'm eating will actually fill me up. I'm not going to waste calories on small amounts of junk food that take up no space in my stomach. Or on the other hand waisting my calories on food over loaded with sugar that's makes me hungrier." lee reasons with a shrug.

" Listen I have to finish cooking and cleaning up. You know how my dad's will get if they come home to a mess in the kitchen. I'll see you at school, bye doll. By the way you look fantastic in white and with your hair down pretty lady."

"Aww you're so sweet lee, I'll fall in love bye doll" I smile and hang up.

I've always had a crush on lee but Cate called dibs back when we were 10, she gets lee if she ever makes a move. On top of that I'm not trying to date right now it's my final year of highschool I seriously need to focus on myself.

I look at myself in the mirror step of the treadmill, walk past the stair master and weigh myself 110, I've gained 3 pounds since last month ! Seeing the scale go up or down never used to affect me ittress me out just a smidge.

I feel a tear slide down my face. It's not about the weight and deep down I feel a bit happy. My muscle and strength is coming back. Maybe I should get my body composition checked.

" Just one protein pan cake for me today" I think to myself as I step back on the treadmill.