Competition

Thursday morning - Cate

I'm greeted with some lovely Adele as my alarm. She makes music for the gods. That forces my first thought to be about fantastic body transformations. She truly does look great.

" I need to add a poster of her to my ceiling." I say with a yawn. She was never ugly sure her weight fluctuated and she used to be very heavy set, but now she is a complete knock out. She was always pretty and had a knock out voice. I'll stop at the store and grab her a poster tomorrow morning.

My morning starts with making my bed tidying up any mess I made last night followed by stretching. Before starting this I turn on a "TheWizardLiz" video and start stretching.

I fold my body over my legs, roll into front,left, and a right spilt. I slowly pop my joints and stretch my arms and legs starting my morning. I slide into a downward dog, cats pose and up into a tree pose.

" Another day without binging or purging." I congratulate myself while slipping into the shower before my brothers. I love my brothers dearly my god but sharing a bathroom with them has begun to be a bit much.

I'm not rich like Emma and Regina, my house is just enough for the four of us though. I can still afford nice things, stuff for school, clothes , working out. I have a few resistance bands, MyFitnessPal premium. I also bought a water pick that arrived Monday evening to combat the harmful effects on my oral hygiene Bulimia causes. It's not anything crazy I just don't want my teeth to rot. I turn up the volume of my video and hop into the shower.

I drench my green loofah in honey scented body wash and slowly begin to scrub every bit of my body. I have a hand sized mirror in the bathroom and look at my face. Not purging has decreased the puff just a little bit. My freckles are decently evenly spread across my face. There nice and dark brown giving me a honey drenched look. I like the shade of my freckles in particular the brown compliments my skin tone and long dark hair. I'm definitely not any thing close to a kpop idol but I'm not ugly. That's all that matters to me.

After washing off my body three times, I'm always so sweaty from gymnastics. Washing over multiple times in one shower makes me feel clean. I move to shampoo my hair, a lovely honey milk shampoo. Honey is one of my favorite scents and toppings on food but it is so hard to purge, so I get my fix in the shower. Followed a bit of argan oil. I braid up my hair in the shower and rinse off one last time before I finally get out.

I use my hair dryer and de-fog my mirror so I can brush my teeth. A tip I learned from countless episodes of Liv and Maddy as a kid. I use the Crest whitening toothpaste, followed by charcoal toothbrush and a good rinse from my water pick. The water pick does all the flossing for me. Honestly I know I have that issue because of my bulima, however I don't know what I can do to fix my throat, I'm happy to be focused on my teeth afnoral hygiene though.

My video ends so I pick a " Why are you scared to glow up video" from Karmelita fox.

Honestly I love her and Liz even though we are different races they are the embodiment of how I want to come across, confident, beautiful, self assured, kind, effortlessly perfect. That's what want more than anything. I'm not to far away from that, even without make up I've always been pretty, had cute clothes and plenty of friends.

I leave the bathroom in my Victoria's secret robe, and head to my room to do my skincare starting off with my jade rolling, and Cera Ve cleanser. Something simple but great for my skin. A few serums from the ordinary and my bronzing drops by drunk elephant followed by sun screen. Loads of skin prep before I start with makeup. Since I'm bulimic my face sometimes gets torn up from all the purging so skin care and make up is a must.

Rebecca says I don't need to wear makeup but with all the red splotches from purging on my face I felt like it was necessary so I don't get caught. Now I do it for me. Also honestly she said she has a boyfriend, and that's great but how? Tossing her weight aside she puts next to no effort into her appearance.

I dab on a bit of concealer in the hollow of my cheeks, under my eyes, and on my forehead. I hate seeing people at school with tons of makeup on there face and none on the forehead ahem, Jazmine from health class. I'm doing light make-up, I don't want to hide my freckles.

I add on My Rhode blush in the shade spicy marg to my upper cheek bones. I add in a thin layer of honey colored eye shadow on my eyes, And finish it off with the most basic Maybelline mascara and some lipgloss.

I set the light face of makeup with The kosas setting spray, and begin to do my hair at 6:15, I decide to do two french braids with yellow bows on the end. I love hair styles like this, it shows of my slimmer face and I can easily display the collar bones I worked so hard for, unlike Lee who ha them naturally.

Finishing everything off, I settle on black Lululemonnflare leggings a yellow baby tea from SheIn and UGGs . I add some simple honey scented perfume and take a picture posting it to my snap chat story. I caption it

"Busy bee 🐝🐝"

It's funny I'm dressed in bee colors today, I was scrolling on Tumblr last night and saw one of those animal themed diets about a bee. Something about reducing the calories you ate every day by 100 starting at 300 since be had three letters in it. You restart every three days.

Finally at 7:10 I'm able to slide out the door after making some avocado toast on wheat bread with eggs.

A decent sized breakfast, and it tasted pretty good. It's been a minute since I've eaten a breakfast That I will not purge and that will fill me up more than my typical cookies and fruit snacks tossed up in the toilet.