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Rebecca's lunch

Rebecca's pov

I eat lunch alone, by choice, most days. Today won't be any different.
After goring on pancakes this morning I didn't have time to pack one so I grabbed something from school. I mean I don't mind sitting alone, I enjoy eating in peace without annoying people bothering me.

A chicken sandwich I loaded in ketchup I wish the school had barbecue sauce.

Fries

A chocolate milk

A cookie

And an apple.

"Yum" I sarcastically say to myself. The food is bound to suck don't get me wrong, I just wish the food I ate tasted good when I binge I can taste every immaculate comforting bite. I love food I love rich flavors of cheese, spice, cream and salt. School food is not that. School food is dry, bland and probably devoid of all vital nutrients.

I sit down and open up the group chat, I send a picture of my lunch and say
"American school lunch I'll just eat the apple. "

Even as I take a bite of the apple I know it's not true. I know I'll eat all of it, still not be satisfied go home and binge on naan, tea, milk, cookies the fried chicken I saved from last night and probably some ice cream. All before dinner is even started but I'll enjoy both "meals." I know I'm lying to the group in an attempt to fit in but I can't help it.

Some girl named Jaclyn responded to my message. Honestly I hate some of the girls in group chats like this, they never talk it feels like they are silently judging every one. Me personally I just assume they are super fat, insecure, and probably jealous. It's predictable why go through the trouble of joining a group chat if your just going to silently judge.

" Yes, American lunch sucks! Enjoy the apple. It's almost like she knows I'm lying, her words sting worse than poison. " When I see that I'm already finished with the apple and half way through the sandwich. I don't even feel guilty for lying, I'm just hungry.

"Hey bex!"
Cate walks up to my table. My incredibly empty table. Minus me and my fat self. Gosh next to her I look like I belong on 600 pound life she's perfect. I mean if I was gay... Well if I was completely gay.

"Hey Cate, what's up? " I ask mid bite . Even standing next to her, pretty asian, and incredibly thin, I can't force myself to stop eating.

" Nothing but the sun, do you want to hang out with my friends and I at Regina's on Friday? Just a chill girls day for a few hours? "

I'm shocked, Cate is always nice to me, she'll offer me something from the vending machine and we are often partners in class but I've never been invited out with her friends before. I don't think she's ever done more than smile at me outside of class.

" Yea sure just text me the address" I look up at her and smile. I probably have food in my teeth right now.
" Okay!" Then she walks away. Beautiful hair swaying a bit, I watch her as she caresses lees arm and sits down smiling at lee.m

I pause for a moment, I can't believe that just happened, I would never admit it to myself but I've always been desperate for more friends. I used to be close with the lgbtq kids at school till one trans girl said I should cut off half my tits and give them to her, because " I'd still have plenty left over" I know I'm fat but did she have to go that far? but I'm happy Cate is talking to me. I Then keep on eating my food. My terrible dry, fattening food.

" I'll have pasta when I get home." I think as I grab another fry.

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