Competition

Ed minds - Rebecca

" I had an amazing time shopping yesterday."

That's the first thought that slides into my head as I push my covers off of me and head to the bathroom to begin a slightly less dreadful day. Usually my first thought is about my partner Jori but not today. Loosing weight has improved my mood, I feel better about myself. However other people haven't noticed my weight loss yet and I'm still being treated differently because I'm over weight. I just need to keep loosing weight till I feel better. Or until other people notice it and say something.

I want people to see my weight loss

To ask how I did it

To admire me for loosing weight

To be seen as pretty

To feel less insecure about Jori possibly cheating on me

To actually allow my feminine figure to be seen instead of being hidden by pounds of unnecessary fat.

I've lost weight but I still feel sluggish.

Don't get me wrong body positivity is fine to and yes as Regina constantly shoves down my throat I do love myself. That's why I'm loosing weight because I don't want to get diabetes. I don't want to be imoblized by my weight. I mean obese people may not die as quickly as underweight people but obese people have to get limbs amputated. Intense amounts of medication. Having to get on oxegan, not being able to walk. We have a terrible quality of life.

I have never felt happier in my life than I do in this moment, don't get me wrong yes I'm still insecure and now I don't compare on a looks level to Emma And Regina. Or even Cate who has a bit extra weight but I don't look as bad as I once did. I feel like I fit in with them a bit more.

Especially after that weightloss! It's mainly due to the meal plan Lee gave me that I've been following. I get that lee is incredibly buff but as a girl with a high sw lee's tips have worked the absolute best for me but of course I'm only one person.

Lee should become a personal trainer at this point.

She is a lot more helpful and healthy than the crazy diets Cate shared with me on Tumblr. Cate and I have very different bodies, she loves honey sugar free/ honey diet, or honestly every edspo diet account out there. But those diets don't work for me , plus I prefer Ed confession blogs. I literally know nothing about honey diet and I do not trust her. But then again it's literally Tumblr, you can't trust anyone. Plus right now anyway everyone is getting reported and termed. I blame the fact that we have really big Ed creators on Tumblr right now all those followers and interactions has to be drawing negative attention.

However the plan Lee made for me works perfectly for me. It's a lot less restrictive than Cate, or Emma's tips to help me out. Plus overall I feel better while loosing weight. However that's just me, some of the Tumblr diets I'm sure work well for other people but they don't work well for me. They aren't sustainable, and as it turns out one of the biggest diet creators honey diet/ honey sugar free doesn't even try out her diets. So why would I try out that diet?

I like lee's plan it fits in with my work and soccer.

Days you are off:
Liquid fast on these days you don't work you can have juiced fruits and veggies
Soup broths
Half scoop protein shakes made with water
Green tea
Black tea
Ginger tea
Smoothies made with two types fruits and water
Smoothies made with two types of vegetables and water
Smoothies made with one fruit and one vegetable and water
1 coffee per day
No diet soda
No monster energy drinks
On liquid fast days have five glasses of water
If you get hungry and want to " eat" something it has to be a raw fruit or vegetable, maybe celery, green apples, oranges , grapefruit, tomatoes if you eat anything outside of that you have due a 30 minute walk. Liquid fast on days you don't work till you reach 215, after that do a normal fast but you can still have your half scoop protein shake made with water.
On days you do work try omad
Start your day with ginger tea, or lemon water
Have your meal contain all of the food groups but focas on macros like protein and fiber.
Break your omad up into small bits thought out the day but try not to have over 14 ounces of food in your omad total. Have vegetables like broccoli, steamed carrots, and corn. Eat meats like lean ground beef, salmon, and chicken breast. Go for carbs like white rice, potatoes, beans, and lentils till you reach 200 pounds, once you reach 200 pounds add in daily 30 minute walks and minimal strength training. 10/15 pound weights