Competition

Avoiding food.

Cate's pov

" Hey Rebecca" despite my last conversation with Lee I happily answer her face time call while I'm out on my daily walk. I could use the walking pad, however I only use that for 10 minutes every other night before I go to bed. Everything in moderation. Honestly since I haven't been purging I've really had to accept that way of thinking. I can have a bit of a cupcake if I spilt it with one of my brothers or something. Plus it's really nice out and I want to be outside. Well as nice ass it can be since cold weather is starting to settle in.

" Hey Caity Cate, what are you up to?" She questions while drinking some carrot juice Emma and her must have made. Those juices really do work magic, typically Emma will have the carrot one when ever she want to build up and internal tan. But bex doesn't need that. Her skin is beautiful the true dark yellow brownness of her goes well with her eyes. They almost look like that have gold in them.

" Nothing girl just on a walk trying to stay productive like Lee I guess." I roll my eyes as I pass a mom and her baby on there own walk. Don't get me wrong Bex is so sweet and once she looses some weight she'll be even cuter but I do not want to talk to anyone right now. I should not have answered her call.

" LoL that's relatable. Honestly Emma's my inspiration, treadmill at 4 am and all. Besides I haven't lost enough weight to aspire to lee's muscular build." She laughs, and runs her hands through her insanely long dark hair.

Honestly if there is one thing I envy Bex for it's her hair, mine has always been thin however I've prevented bulimia related hair thinning through jasmine oil scalp massages once a week, low tension hair styles, and a hair strengthening conditioner. Plus diy red light therapy once a month. Loosing my hair has always been a fear of mine, no matter how pretty being thin makes me I'm hideous if I have no hair. Honestly everyone is. Plus I feel like there is so many steps you can take to not loose your hair while loosing weight. If you do you mudt be stupid.

" Anyway Cait, I called you because I have my cousin's wedding next week. I love weddings but In Indian culture we have giant weddings filled with food. Sometimes the whole wedding will take three days. I've always had my aunties negatively comment on my weight whenever we get together. Don't get me wrong with your tips, especially fasting once every two weeks I've lost a good amount of weight. But I need to know how to avoid food while at the wedding."

Ahh, that's the million dollar question God I guess lee was right. I swear loosing weight is all she cares about. I totally understand, I mean lees biggest priority is building muscle, Mine and Emma's is maintaining our weight and Regina doesn't care but still. And who cares if her family has said mean things about her weight it clearly wasn't enough to keep her from getting bigger.

As I think I stop under a beautiful cherry tree and drink some chia seed water. I've been out jogging for about half a mile. I still sf energy in me to keep running but I don't want to seem fat while panting as I try and talk to Bex. The tree I'm under is way bas blooming but it's still beautiful. I'll have to take a picture to post on insta after I get off the phone. Sometimes with exercise I feel the whole " pics or it didn't happen mentality."

" Well, honestly you could just eat small amounts of everything and no one would notice you are eating less. Maybe you could go around heavily mentioning you ate a lot, maybe to much even earlier in the day.
Then maybe the wouldn't assume anything or think to much about it? You know because obviously you are making unclear you are already full. "

I shrug and lean down to re tie my NIKE shoes. Genuinely they are perfect for long runs or short walks. Regina put me on with these.

" Okay thank you I could give that a try. " She responds almost dissatisfied with my response. As If she's not the one who called me.

Fine if she wants advice, the advice that got me to a size zero she can have it. I doubt she has the discipline to get where I am anyway.

" On the other hand, you could fast the day before and after the wedding but I know you haven't done two fasts in a week yet. You could also do OMAD only eat one meal, of course at the wedding when everyone can see and no one will notice anything. It should still be a small meal though. I'm sure all the food will be cooked in oils anyway so you probably should OMAD. All those hidden calories will 100% show. I'm sure you know about eating some food and stuffing the rest into napkins and throwing it away. And since we are on the topic you could chew and spit but at a wedding you will get caught. But it's up to you. "

I don't know why she's asking me this crap, she literally has an Ed GC on her phone, go ask them. Like I understand we are all her body goals and she actually sees us use the tips we give her but please don't get all upset with me because I try and give you tips you can actually use. I don't want her to develop an ED or ruin her body but BED is already doing that to her.n

I start back up on my run after my little break, just burning off some calories I over ate on. I will exercise if I didn't over eat, I don't use it as a safety net or a punishment. Sure sometimes I'm tired an don't want to get on the walking pad, but I want a beautiful body. So I so it. Not a binge but I did have some white rice and ramen my mom made that didn't quite fit into my maintenance calorie intake. Besides burning it off is better than purging.

" Oh my gosh thank you Cate, you are so helpful, I love you so much seriously. I think you are right about the fast though. That's to much. Maybe in another month I could try something like that, I think I'll try the OMAD, and hiding food in napkins. Honestly that should have occurred to me first but I'm always happy to use any of your tips."

She smiles and her fat cheeks momentarily gross me out. God we've only been on the phone for 20 minutes and she's already finished the juice, ever heard of savoring your food? This is literally why she's fat. Like dang take sometime between every sip? I bite back my hatred and respond.

" Yes of course, I'm happy to help you out! You definitely need it. Are you still down to go clothes shopping with the rest of us next Thursday?"

" Yes of course! My clothes are getting looser and I definitely need some new stuff." She responds, while sitting down on her couch.

" Really? They are I hadn't noticed. Great, I have to go but the rest of the girls and I can't wait to go shopping with you! Bye."

I quickly hang up and slow down to a walk as I near my house. Taking a picture of the flowers outside to post to Instagram.

" Gosh I hate that girl, thinks she's someone because she's lost a touch of weight."

Walking inside I run up to my room grab my Brandy Melville heart pajama set and head to the shower. I feel like Bandy is so perfect for the end of summer and start if fall. Perfectly cozy, I tie my hair up into a cute little bun. Put on green tea under eye patches before popping in the shower.

While showering I decide to play Hailey Biebers date night skin care routine from vouge. I like her brand , Rhode, some of her things work for me, others don't, and others I can't afford.