In a circle of friends, we laugh and we talk,
College gossip, easy banter, light as a breeze,
I'm there, I'm here, I'm following along,
Until, like a flickering light, my mind does seize.
Snap. I zone out. The world fades away,
Gone is the joy, the smiles on my face,
My thoughts start to race, a thousand at once,
The past and the future take up all the space.
Memories replay like scenes on a reel,
Fears of tomorrow cast shadows so wide,
The present, neglected, drifts out of reach,
Unlived and unnoticed, no matter how I try.
A friend sees me lost in the maze of my mind,
Waves a hand gently, no need for a shout,
For they know a call or a touch would just startle,
But their silent gesture pulls me back out.
I smile once more, free for now,
Grateful for friends who see through the mask,
But a thought lingers, deep in the dark-
If alone I should zone out, who will unfasten my clasp?
Who will reach in when the world falls away,
When the chains of my thoughts keep me bound?
In the silence of solitude, I fear the unknown-
Who will free me when no one's around?
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Trapped in my own head
PoetryShe is an outcast. She finds it easier to express what she feels in the form of writing. Whether it is poems, letters or long texts. These are poems that she writes trying to describe how it feels to live with certain mental health issues, in a worl...
