It was Wednesday, when the life I loved ended.
The day started ordinary, until now. Now, my hands were numb, shaky and sweaty. I was biting my lip and I couldn't remember the last time my eyes fought hard to keep my tears in.
Nick meant well, being one of the nicest people I know. He was staring at me, not sure what to say and I could tell he was doubting my sanity and if he made the right decision to tell me. His words replayed in my mind, getting louder and louder.
"Matt has been sleeping with a girl he met in L.A for about three months...maybe more than that"
At first, I didn't believe him. How could it be true? Matt and I loved each other and we couldn't betray each other like that, right? Nick grimaced and took out his phone, showing me his texts from Matt. They proved everything, how he met her and how he fell into a relationship with her. The reality of it still had to kick in and my mind failed to make sense of it. This wasn't what I expected when Nick called to meet me. Nothing would be the same from now on.
"Y/N?" Nick asked in a low and soft voice
One of his hands reached out and took a gentle hold of my wrist. His kitchen felt awfully small and I felt restless.
"You're welcome to stay. I have a spare room...you'll have the space. It'd be easy"
Nothing about this was or ever will be easy.
Matt held a girl that wasn't me. His lips kissed a girl that wasn't me. He slept with a girl, that wasn't me. What caused my heart to shatter was just because he had her, he didn't stop holding me at night. We still kissed and we were still so in love.
"Y/N" he spoke again, in a pleading tone, but I don't know what he was pleading for.
"I appreciate it, Nick" I said, sounding ironic. "For telling me. I know I-"
A sob shook through my body, cutting off my sentence and I closed my eyes to take a breath.
"You love Matt and he...what I mean to say is, thank you, Nick"
"Of course" he said, giving me a small, sad smile.
I picked up my mug and took a sip of the coffee and his eyes followed my movements.
"What do you think you're going to do next?" He asked.
I shrugged and took a deep breath. "I think I'll go home"
***
The house of my home front door closing sent a shiver over my skin. The noise echoed in a mocking way and I hurried to drop the keys in the bowl we kept by the entrance. I made my way into the kitchen to make a hot drink. Nick insisted on getting me an Uber home, but I refused, wanting to calm myself down on the ride home.
Matt had taken someone new to be his partner and though it may only be the physical sense so far, it might as well be an emotional connection too. That wasn't something I could tolerate. Matt and I stopped being a happy couple three months and two weeks ago. It wasn't a coincidence, marking the day he started seeking comfort in someone else.
I flinched when the front door opened and closed, indicating Matt was home. He didn't call out to announce he was home, he hadn't done in a long time. I shut my eyes, urging myself not to yell. I didn't turn around until I heard him stop in the doorway in the kitchen.
"Hi" he said, nothing but plain indifference in his voice.
I took a deep breath and looked over my shoulder, flashing a fake smile as I brushed my hands over my shirt. Everything about Matt was familiar to me, I could probably describe him in detail without seeing him in a month. My eyes left his and I looked down at my hands.
