Oceanside

Chapter 38

Odette

Silas carried me into his room then laid me down on the bed. My heart was racing and I could hardly catch my breath. I had done other things with my past boyfriends but never sex. I just never felt ready. Now I did. I have for a while with Silas.

I started to take off his clothes, pulling his shirt until he leaned up and took it off. He did the same with me. His lips traveled down my jaw and throat, slowly but with enough pressure to make my head spin. When he got to the base of my throat he paused, torturing the spot. It was then I remembered what the werewolf site said.

"Are you going to bite me?" I breathed.

He paused, pulling his head back to meet my eyes. "Do you want me to?"

I didn't have to think it through much. I wanted to be with him, wholly. The only thing I hesitated on was the pain. I would assume biting someone hard enough to break skin would hurt.

"Yes." My fingers nervously played with the hair.

He looked over my face. "Odette don't say you want to because you think that's what I want to hear."

I guess my face showed my nerves. "That's not what I'm doing. I swear. I want this, I want you and this bond," I said. "I'm just...I'm worried how much it will hurt."

His happiness at my words blended into a hint of worry towards the end. He pushed up, taking me with him so I sat on his lap. "It will hurt. I'm not sure how much but it won't be for very long."

I shifted towards him. "That's okay." If it didn't hurt for that long I could handle it.

He still looked hesitant and went to speak but I did before he could. "Silas if you don't want to then we won't. I want to."

"I do—" he said. He went to say something else but I stopped him with a kiss. He was more worried than I was. I appreciated him wanting me to want it too, to know I had a choice in when. However overthinking it would only make it worse for me.

I kissed him slowly, waiting for his mind to calm and process I wasn't going to back out. His hands slid over my back, pushing me further up on his lap. I felt one of his hands move to my hair, sweeping the locks that had fallen over my left shoulder back.

Being gentle he broke away from my mouth, kissing down my throat until he reached the spot right above my collarbone. He paused there, softly kissing the area as if to give me time to change my mind.

"Please Silas," I whispered, encouraging him.

His fingertips dug into my flesh. One arm stayed wrapped around my lower back while the other one grasped the back of my neck, locking me in place.

Then he bit me.

I tensed up, my hands gripping his shoulders hard. I squeezed my eyes shut and tried not to let any noise out. A small whimper came out immediately. Shit he was right it did hurt. The pain was sharp and intense. After the first wave hit I tried to move away, his hold wouldn't let me.

"Okay Silas," I tried to get his attention. "Ouch Silas, that hurts."

The longer his teeth were in the more it hurt. His teeth were long and I wanted to say it was more than just two. Maybe his top and bottom canines. I couldn't tell as the entire area heated up. The pain became a sore aching feeling.

He pulled his teeth out slowly making me wince. I left warm trickles running down my neck. I knew it was blood but it wouldn't be too much to cause concern. His eyes scanned over the mark then went to my face.

"Odette I am so sorry," he said. His hands came up to cup my face.

I blinked the tears that threatened to fall. "Don't apologize. I'm okay," I assured. Then with some humor. "How does it look?"