Poetry In Emotion [Completed]

I don't know what to do:

What do I do with the things at hand?
After all, I'm not sure if they're under my command
I want to be so many things
I'm not sure which finger to put this ring
I'm not even sure that's a good analogy
I'm unsure, can't you see?

I want to be a photographer, and a writer too
I don't know how to go about doing this, do you?
I want to go to this photography school
I want to go to college too, but the problem is I can't and it ain't cool
I could go to college, but I want to go to that school I mentioned before
The reason: I know I can be so much more
Photography is what I choose to pursue
But I can't because it's not local and easy to do

This is top secret, you see,
So don't you dare tell anybody
I have Crohn's and I take an iv every two months at a hospital in the Bronx so I don't know if I can leave
As I type this, I sigh a huge heave
I don't know what to do
Do you?