Especially you

Goodnight my princess.

Chapter 55. "Goodnight my princess"
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(This chapter contains a panic attack)

I've actually had a lot of trouble with panic attacks and anxiety, so I wanted to spread knowledge through talking about it here, loving this chapter too!!
- Kisses

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Reds pov

The room was spinning, everyone was dancing around. Gabby and I stood on the middle of the dance floor, dancing to a Katy Perry song.

It was so interesting being friends with Gabby, people who didn't know her still adored her. Everyone was hyping her up, looking at her like she was some famous statue.

I definitely wasn't used to being around someone with such a high status. Even if Chloe definitely had a good word being said about her.

I feel my stomach twist, but it isn't from the alcohol, it's from anxiety. I wondered what Chloe was doing right now... Was she alone?

I love-hated the way I was attached to her. Like what if we would ever break up? Would I manage to live on my own? I needed to be able to make friends on my own, and build a life on my own. Even if all I wanted was to be in Chloe's embrace, every minute of the day.

- You good? Wanna go outside? Gabby sweetly asks, I could almost not hear her, the music was to loud.

- I'm good, but I'm just gonna go make a quick phone call , I'll be right back! I yell though the music and Gabby nods back and makes her way over to some people she knows.

I sit down on by some bushes outside, I notice that they're almost completely broken.. Probably some scumbag that was to drunk that stumbled into them I thought..

I pull up my phone and press on Chloe's number, I nervously tap my foot. It's freezing outside and I'm still in the outfit Gabby picked out for me.

"Hi baby, what are you doing, I miss you!" I exclaim as I hear Chloe answer.

"Uhm, n- n- Nothing I just- Me and Zack was just out getting an ice cream!" She stammers, hearing Zack's voice somewhere beside her.

"Uh, uhm, in this cold? Are you driving? Sounds like you're driving?" I ask, hearing the sound of the engine and Zack's yapping.

"Oh, yeah, as I said, just out for an ice cream" she awkwardly laugh.

"Okay then" I start but Chloe's fast to cut me off,

"Are you okay, are you at the party?"

"Yeah, I'm here"

"Well are you having a good time? Is Gabby with you?" She asked, trying to sound nice.

"Well it's kinda boring without you, you know.. And Gabby's inside, I'm out by some broken bushes, don't know what happened here really" - I say as I look at the broken bush in front of me.

Suddenly I hear Zack burst into laughter on the other end....

"Was that funny?" I ask, now hearing that I sounded a bit drunk.

"Nahhh, just Zack that... Ehm- Dropped his ice cream! Yeah!! He dropped his ice cream.. on the floor..." Chloe awkwardly stutters, like she just came up with something.

"Didn't you say you were in the car?" I ask, getting suspicious.

"Yeah, he dropped it in his seat I mean, his seat yeah" Chloe assured.

"Well can you come pick me up? Baby I miss you! I can't stand being to those things without you! I don't care if I'm never able to be alone again, I need you Chloe!" I yell as I feel the twist in my stomach again.