when the infinity sign is pulled apart
it breaks into two headless zeroes.
ever noticed it in your books?
ever seen it happen to someone you love?
ever been there when it happened to you?
there's a wall of tears just beneath my eyes
and i'm trying to scale but i fall
and when i fall i become a knot in my heart,
then a lump in my throat, and finally
a poisonpill on my tongue called speech.
my eyes are potholes now
on a dangerous knifechance road
filled with rainwater as stagnant
as a funeral of a hated man.
the only way this water can go
is down into the gutters, drowing rodent hopes,
or up into the scorching sun,
leaving behind memory strings of moisture
like abandoned orgasms, like dried up tears.
~ ajay
31/10/2024
