if home is where the heart is,
and if your heart has been broken many times,
then do you have no home at all
or many broken ones?
i was afraid of how much more i've to live through
so i left home and took a bus
to rewatch the rerelease of interstellar in imax.
then i was afraid of how short my life is,
all the possibilities i'll miss out on,
even as on the way back i see three boys
wearing human billboards, advertising
Asset Tree Real Estate, or a horde of kids
wearing the green uniforms of Allen Coaching Institute
rushing towards silicon valley dreams and suicide-proof fans.
this country is going to be late even to late-capitalism.
but this new fear is better than my old fear
and my mind is clogged with ideas
just as hunger is clogged by a harvest,
saying: where the mind is without fear
the heart approaches near
saying my dear, stay here.
~ ajay
19/2/2025
