A Nagas tale

Home at last

I spent the next three days watching over Yyvonne while she played. My cramps seemed to come for me with a vengeance and I did not want to move an inch. Kogen has thankfully switched from a sex goblin into a cuddly bear. I loved him for understanding I needed some rest and affection. Kogen had gone to ask the medic if he had any menstrual pills but it seems a lot of the women on this ship are literally on the same boat as me. I have been using Kogen as a heating pad for the pain. "We are almost to the port." Kogen walks up handing me some Ice cream. I sit up and take the sweet treat. "Oh thank God." I cheer silently. "How are you feeling?" he asks. I nod "These cramps seem spitful." I answer. He chuckles sitting next to me. He puts his hand on my cramping stomach "Hmm hopefully I can fix that." he teases. I blush "W... well you won't be fixing anything anytime soon." I refused the idea of letting him touch me while I was bleeding. He chuckles "Well, In time." He chuckles. I eat my Ice cream watching the seagulls start to harass the kids for their food. I have found myself people-watching a lot these few days. The children playing with Yyvonne just looked so adorable and it made me feel a little sad. 'How cute would my baby be? How cute would it be to see Kogen carry such a tiny baby.' I lean on Kogen feeling a little depressed. I feel Kogen poke at my stomach "Soon." he states. I blush turning my eyes away from the kids. 'he's been hell-bent on breeding since we made up.' I bite the ice cream using the cold food to snap me out of my train of thought. Helen and Aurora walk up to us coming back from taking the Zipline and the water slides down. "My how cute this couple." Helen sounds like an old lady the way she teases. "How are you feeling Audrey?" Aurora hands me a small chocolate from her bag. I take the candy she offers "I'll survive." I mutter. Helen giggles "I see Kogen must have aggravated your condition." She states. I frown "Aggravated?" I ask curiously. She nods "Well, I have learned that having sex before a menstrual cycle can create unwanted extra pain during menstruation." She explains. I sigh 'Of fucking course.' I bite my ice cream again this time to express my frustration. "Wow, what a phycotic way of eating." Aurora comments. I chew on the cold cream trying to focus on one thing to complain about. "I see why you two fit." Aurora jokes. I cackle at her response. I have found once you get to know Aurora and she gets over her superiority complex she isn't that bad. She is a shy girl trying to fit into an organization of mostly men aside from Kogen's mother and Helen. I honestly can't wait to get to know her some more. The sun had already set by the time we made it to the port. I did not waste any time lamenting the lost time on the ship. I wanted to get off the ship on my own two feet but Kogen decided otherwise. I look out at the people that gathered waiting for their returning loved ones or family from outside of the island. My eyes spotted a familiar face. 'isn't that?' "Audrey!!!!" I hear Dad shout. Kogen let me down once we got onto dry land. He quickly tackles me into a tight hug. I groan feeling a gush of disgusting blood. I want to fight him off but after everything I've been through. Dad's hugs just felt like I made it to safety in one piece with Kogen. Well mostly in one piece. 'Welcome home, my child.' I turn my eyes to the mountain and smile. "I'm back!" I tell both Dad and the ancestor. "We should get you back to the village! I bet you are tired from the long trip!" Dad starts examining my face and arms. He seemed very worried and I think I might know why. "Olivia told me that you'd been attacked!" He turns me around and checks my back. I look at the ground knowing he had the information and might be disappointed. "Kogen! My boy!" he doesn't ask about it simply letting it be. I felt this was his way to let me know everything was fine. I smile seeing him pat Kogen down as well. "Alright! Where is my granddaughter!" he shouts quickly grabbing Yyvonne and spinning her around. I smile seeing how happy Yyvonne was to see my Dad again. "So this is your father?" I turn to Aurora who sized Dad up. I nod "Yeah that old goofball is my Dad." I tell her. She nods "Hm I see where you get your personality." she mutters. I cackle at what she said "Sir!" I turn to Leo and Idris who'd come back some time ago. "It's good to see you made it back in one piece." Idris ruffles my hair. I turn to Leo who nods his head and follows Idris to Kogen. Kogen leads them away "We should get you guys into the wagon on the way home!" Dad starts pushing us towards the wagon. "Wagon? Are we not in Ez already?" Aurora asks. I shake my head "No this is the port town of Zeras." I explain. My eyes linger on Kogen who sent the guys away instead of walking with them to the wagon. He puts our bags on the wagon before turning to us. "We should get home as quickly as possible." He urges us. I don't argue with him about that. 'I loved seeing the big cities outside of home but I miss the silence of home.' Kogen grabs my waist and picks me up into the wagon. I find a spot to sit only for Kogen to sit and sit me on his lap. I said nothing seeing how cramped the wagon was with our bags and the others. "You can sleep if you need." He tells me. I look at him "Did you send that thing to Yuri?" I ask. He sighs "Here I thought I was being sneaky." He grumbles. I nod "Normally Idris and Leo stick to you like glue so I figured it might be that." I answer. He nods "Yeah, I sent them to his lab so he can examine that thing." He explains. I nod "I hope he finds a way to purge it from the snake tribe." I murmur. He shrugs "I could care less, Those idiots decided to interact with the Leviathan tribe." he scoffs. I can see he was upset and I can't really blame him. 'Have you found out why the snake tribe has turned against us?' I twist my body to look at the mountain. "Dad, how has the ancestor been?" I ask. He nods "Your Grandfather and I have been keeping a close eye on the shrines around the Island that hold the seal." he answers. I nod "Have there been any issues?" I ask. He shakes his head "No, there have been a few tremors here and there." He stops talking. "tremors? why?" I ask. He looks at me with somber eyes. "I let slip to your Grandfather that you lost a child." He answers. I feel my heart sink "Do you think?" 'I heard.' I flinch turning back to the mountain. 'I wish there was a way for me to meet this child of yours.' He laments. I nod "He heard." I murmur. Dad nods "he was angry about the assassination, so your grandfather wants to start looking for the ancient barrier that once protected the Ancestor's cave." He explains. I nod "I'll be ready to head out tomorrow morning to start the investigation." I mutter. "Audrey, have you gotten any rest?" Dad asks. I nod "Plenty." I answer rummaging through my bag. "Have you had time to mourn your child?" he asks. I look at the inside of my bag 'No but, I'd rather not linger on it.' I want to answer. "No huh? You've been keeping yourself busy to keep it out of your mind." He hits the nail on the head. "I have no time to sit depressed." I answer. He grabs my hands "Audrey, You have all the time in the world to take a few steps back." he assures me. "I agree, you should give yourself time to mourn." Helen speaks up. I look at her before looking at Kogen. "We should take a few days to rest and mourn." he tells me. 'Come to the mountain to make the child a burial.' The ancestor instructs. I lower my eyes "How? I don't know what happened to my baby." I whisper. Kogen hugs me tightly "Yuri persevered the fetus and brought it back as a favor." He tells me. My eyes widen as I look up at Kogen. "M... My baby is here!?" I ask feeling the pain resurface. He nods hugging me tightly "I asked him to send it to my mother." he explains. I feel the guilt I carried for the past several weeks melt. "I didn't lose it in the mess!?" I ask. He shakes his head "No, The medical staff had to surgically remove the fetus." he explains. "It had no heartbeat due to the placenta being torn." I had no idea what came of my baby. All I remember is waking up to the nurse telling me the baby didn't make it. 'Kogen knew all of the details, he carried the details with him this entire time!?' I close my eyes 'holy fuck that must have killed him.' I feel numb again guilty once more for letting him suffer with this knowledge on his own. "I'm sorry you two had to go through that." I look at Dad who puts his hand on Kogen's shoulder. Kogen remains firm not showing a tremble or a twitch but I can see it. In the murkiness that clouds his eyes. I tried my best to push it out of my mind. I didn't realize doing that might have hurt Kogen. I can't find anything to say or do on the ride back. Once again I'm left in a state of guilt and numbness. My mind checked out but sleep was not what I got. I watched the forest grow thicker leading back to our home. 'Would my baby still be alive had I stayed? tucked away safely in this forest?' The doubt starts to bloom in my chest. 'Was I stupid for wanting to see the world? Did my ignorance create this pain for Kogen and me?' I feel my chest burn with anger. 'No, my baby would have been safe had I stayed with Kogen.' I frown 'Had those stupid things left me alone.' I feel myself start to spiral into an anger-filled depression. We got to the village around 3 am so everything was shut down. Dad led me and Yyvonne back home while Kogen took the girls to the house they would be staying at. "You should try to get some sleep." He gives me a big hug once we are outside of my house. I nod unsure of what to do or feel. He lets me go and watches us enter the house. I take Yyvonne to her room and tuck her in. "Audrey, it's okay to be sad." she whispers. I look at my adorable daughter as she curls into her blankets. I stand up "Yeah, I know." I whisper before turning away from her. "Good night sweety." I whisper before leaving her room. I look at the familiar house I missed so much. I walk to our room seeing my old room open and empty. I step closer to it and see the baby Items Kogen had shipped here. I walk in and sit down the baby bassinet is already assembled. I feel my throat sting and my eyes burn as I hold back my pain. I remember that day we spent shopping and how excited Kogen looked. I loved the sight of it but now it only filled me with guilt. I pick up the little stuffed doll in the basket of toys. 'This will be for our baby girl.' Kogen didn't ask he demanded. I hug the doll unable to hold back how cheated I felt. "I want my baby back." I sob holding the doll to my chest. "It's not fair." I sob resigning my anger to pain. I sat in the dark room expressing the pain I felt. Kogen's aura flooded the area letting me know he was back. I can feel the hurt in his aura and he was not hiding it. I feel guilty knowing I'd caused this pain in him. I press the doll to my face 'My poor baby.' I dare not make a sound not wanting him to feel any more pain than he already did. I struggle to control my sobs 'Why? Why my baby? why such an innocent life?' The sound of the door only increased my desire to hide the pain. 'I can't show emotion, nobody likes it.' I try to calm down but the fast-approaching footsteps seem to make the pain increase. I jump when Kogen falls to his knees behind me and pulls me closer. The warmth of his embrace seems to draw out the pain more. I can't hear him but his aura expresses a lot. I twist my body wanting to hug him myself. He let me do as I wanted. I hug him tightly setting the doll on the ground. "Kogen." I sob. I look at him soundlessly shed tears. I shake my head "It's not fair that I am allowed to cry but you aren't letting yourself." I whisper. I cup his cheeks "It's Okay to cry, my love." I beg him to let the emotion take over. He looks at me still refusing to let out a sound. "I'm sorry, I let you suffer with the information of our child." I whisper. "I'm sorry if the way I was acting made you feel alone." I bite my lip. He slumps his shoulders and hides his face on my shoulder. I move my hands from his face to his back hugging him tightly as he starts sobbing. I feel like such a bitch for trying to act like nothing happened. I rest my face on his shoulder and allow my emotions to poor out with Kogen.