MashaAllah so many questions
I try my best to be kind there are people I do miss from my past like I do sometimes things didn't end on bad terms and I forgive them with all my heart because I want
Fardous
You got to understand This
Allah's put you on this journey and them because this was best for you and for them.
You get closer to Allah during isolation I know trust me it's not easy but its best this way if you go your own path like in surat Al kafiroon
It's not just about the kafir
It's about different cultures
Belief systems
Different ideas and people clash or people have different sects etc
So Allah chooses who to elevate
Allah is immaculate and has big plans
I was the worse person in terms of shyness
So I know this is bad okay but Allah helped me in a way
When people reject you it's actually good it protects you from zina
Allah loves you
This is protection
I made peace with my stupidity and my mistakes of zina with the eyes
Because I didn't understand the severity of looking at people
Then I realised it leads to major sins
So I stopped
I have control of myself even if I looked I always repent because I have guilt
It eats me up
Allah loves the repentance
I made peace with rejectors
I even did sadiqa jariah for some
Just to feel at peace with my past because I don't hate or dislike them
I want them to have a good life
Be happy
Go jennat Al fardous
Go haj
Umra
Same like me
You have to love Allah, your Prophet, love yourself, the Angels and those around you.
I hope your bitterness goes away in shaa Allah ameen.
