Becoming you

Chapter 19

Everything was going back to normal little by little. After your absence, you came back to college. You were afraid of meeting Woohyun there but fortunately he didn't show up. You expected Sehun to be with you but he didn't go to college either. His parents were compelling him to take charge on the company. Apparently, his father was sick and couldn't attend to all the meetings and obligations that the company required, so he asked him. He refused but his mother insisted a lot and he couldn't say no. Anyway, he just spent a few hours in the company and came back home again with you.

"You have to go to college one day, you know? You're missing so many classes", you said.

"I don't really know if I'll come back to college", he replied. "I'm reconsidering being in my father's company... Besides, after my fight with Woohyun, they're probably going to expel me", he continued.

"What?", you asked surprised. They couldn't expel him from college. "Oh my God, Sehun. I'm so sorry. It's my fault if they expel you...", you said crying.

"It's not your fault. You didn't oblige me or took my hand to hit him. I did it because I wanted", he replied.

"I can talk to them...", you began. "I told you this is not your fault. I'm not angry...", he said stroking your cheeks and wiping your tears away.

"It's worth it since Woohyun will be expelled too", he said. "I won't let him to touch you again", he continued.

"Sehun...", you whispered.

"It's fine", he said. But was it fine? Sehun continued telling you it wasn't your fault; that he really wanted to do that. He was the same as always around you; he didn't change a bit. He assured you everything was fine and you shouldn't worry, but you couldn't help but think that he was doing that because of you. He was at the company while you were in class and then he spent the rest of the day with you. He even left his job in the club to be with you during the weekends too. It was his way of protecting you.

"I finally can have the weekends for me", Sehun smiled. "Should be do anything? It's been ages since we don't have a date", he said.

"I'd love that", you smiled back. You spent the whole day outside. It was incredible the way Sehun could make you forget about the rest of the world. You could only see him and he was the only thing you needed. It was such an exciting feeling being with him. You didn't even know why he chose you but he loved you, you had no doubt about that. And you loved him so much. You always thought that kind of love wasn't made for you. It was so difficult for you to meet people that you thought it was almost impossible for you to open up to someone. But being with him was so easy, so natural. You liked everything about him and you wanted to be with him in every sense. You needed him to be your first. At first, you were so scared and you weren't ready. You needed to know that he really loved you to be with him; you needed to trust him first. You didn't want to wake up one day and find that everything was a lie. But it was real. He loved you for real and you felt the same. Every time he touched you, it was as if electricity ran through your whole body. But he always stopped in the best moment. You didn't know if he was just teasing you or really wanted to make sure you were ready for him. But gosh, you were so ready for him. You desperately needed to be with him and you were going to take what you needed. He wasn't going to stop you that time.

You lied down on your bed tired after the long day outside. You looked at Sehun, who was looking over at the stuff on your desk.

"What's this?", he asked, taking one of your drawings. "Is this me?", he smirked.

"Yes, it's you", you replied trying to hide your laughter.

"And why am I naked?", he asked as he lied down on the bed beside you.

"You're not naked. It only shows your chest", you replied.

"But I'm sure you imagined me fully naked when you drew it", he said as he blinked. You laughed softly; your eyes fixed on his lips. They looked so appealing. If only his lips could go across all your body... Gosh, why were you so horny all the time? It was Sehun's fault. He always stopped you before it got serious, leaving you sexually frustrated. You bit your lip and sighed.

"Are you tired?", he asked, misunderstanding your sigh.

"No, I'm...", you began.

"Let me give you a massage", he replied. He took off your shoes and began to massage your feet gently. It was weird seeing him like that. He was normally the one who obliged you to massage him.

"Ahhh", you moaned unconsciously.

"Don't do that", Sehun said serious. You saw your opportunity in that moment.

"Sehun", you whispered as you made him lie down beside you again, both in front of each other. You placed your hand on his jaw line, stroking softly, before your lips met. You let your passion get out in that kiss. It was a violent and wet kiss; your tongues were fighting for each other for dominance.

"Baby", he said as you broke the kiss for air.

"Please, Sehun. Don't stop me now", you begged.

"Baby, I'm not sure...", he began.

"Don't you want me?", you asked as your voice broke a little.

"Of course I want you", he replied quickly. "I want you so much. I've dreamt about this moment so many times", he continued.

"Why you always stop me then?", you asked.

"I don't want you to rush things just because of the passion of the moment", he replied. He stroked your face and kissed you softly.

"I'm not rushing anything, Sehun. I really want this. I want you", you replied.

"Haneul and Chanyeol are here. He could hear us. You know that, right?", he asked. He bit his lower lip. He wanted that too. You could see it in his eyes; they were dark and full of lust.

"Then I'll try to be quiet", you replied.

"I won't be able to stop once we begin", he said.

"I don't want you to stop", you replied. "I need you inside me, Sehun", you said in the most erotic voice you could used. That made him lose him mind. Before you could process it, his warm hands cupped your face and he brought your mouth to his. A low groan from the back of his throat vibrated down you. His hot and wet mouth devoured yours; his tongue desperately circling the inside.

"Wait a moment", he said as he left to return with a couple of condoms. So this was it. It was the moment you'd been waiting for so long. He placed himself on top of you and began to kiss you again as his hands roamed along your body, looking for every piece of bare skin to touch. You ran your fingers through his hair and bent your head back as he attacked your neck. You moaned slightly. His hot tongue was burning you. You pulled him tighter into your chest, desperate to feel him closer and closer. Your body was trembling under him.

"You're shaking, baby. We can stop if...", he said. "No. I can't help being nervous but it's in a good way", you replied.

"Please, Sehun. I really want this", you said. He looked intensely at you in a way you'd never seen before. It was like if he wanted to eat you out. Your body was shaking again. But it wasn't nervousness that time. It was pure excitement. After what seemed as an eternity, he finally moved his hands and slowly took off your shirt. His fingers caressed your skin softly, causing it to be covered with goose bumps. His hands then gripped your sides and lowered to pull off your pants. "So beautiful", he said. He came back on top of you and kissed your lips.

"I'll make you feel so good, baby", he whispered in your ear. Anticipating shivers ran through your body. That was really happening.