On That Same Year

Epilogue

S/A: I recommend to listen to this song Home // Daughtry while reading the whole chapter up until the end. Enjoy!

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It was summer when I decided to travel somewhere where I would be able to fully reset my life again.

After grandma died, I was left alone. Broken and lonely, everyday's just overwhelming and it feels suffocating.

I hate to admit that I do have parents but they didn't even take the initiative to take care of me. It was all thanks to grandma, she never feels to make me feel like I lack with my parents' love.

But, amidst all of that. I knew deep inside I still crave for it. Yun nga lang, hindi ko na hinihinging maranasan pa 'yon.

After my parents' divorced, I learned to survive everyday with my grandma until she was already gone and I'm left alone in this world with no one to rely on.

It feels like I'm lifeless even though I'm breathing and living just fine, it's like a knife that keeps on persisting to stab me a thousand times everyday.

It was two days ago when I started to apply a few part time jobs in this area and got accepted as a delivery food driver by the married couple who owns a small restaurant.

"Paki-deliver daw sa eskwelahan, Ruzh." saad ni Tati at ibinigay sa akin ang isang supot ng pagkain mula sa resto ng auntie niya.

"Salamat, estudyante ba nag order nito?" tanong ko, tumango naman siya at nang matapos ay kaagad na rin naman siyang pumasok sa resto at tumulong sa pag s-serve.

It was a busy day for me but it looks like all that tiring thingy I felt within myself disappeared nang makalingat ako ng tingin sa school garden ng paaralang ito.

I spotted a girl, her hair was averagely short and it was a little bit curly. She's writing something in her notes while earphone's are on her ears.

She looked so pretty and attractive that for the first time in my life, I felt like my heart's about to come off my chest for it is beating uncontrollably.

Napako ang tingin ko sa kaniya na hindi ko namalayang ilang minuto ko na pala siyang pinagmamasdan habang nakatayo at parang loko-lokong nakangiti sa kaniya kahit hindi niya naman ako kita.

A small though pop out in my head. I wonder what's her name?

It was that day when I suddenly felt alive, na para bang nagkaroon nalang ako bigla ng motivation para mag patuloy sa buhay kahit alam kong wala naman ng saysay.

I wasn't even planning to finish studying senior high school this year kasi alam kong mahirap but after seeing that girl, I felt like she carelessly help me decide to pursue studying even though I felt like stopping.

I even remember that day before I drove off that school, I took a stolen glance at the school's name written in front beside the gate.

When the my first day of school came, I cannot help but surpress a ghost smile within my lips because I knew there's possibilities for me to meet her inside the campus any minute now.

I've been wanting to see her for so long and now, makikita ko na siya.

Nang makapasok sa classroom kung saan ako nailagay ng school principal, napako pa ang tingin ko sa bakanteng seat gilid ng isang babaeng nakatitig sa akin doon sa ika-tatlong row ng mga upuan.

But, I brush that thought off when I snap out of it because I don't wanna embarass myself in front of everyone in my first day of school.

Magsasalita na sana ako nang biglang may pumasok, lahat ay napatingin sa direksyon ng babae kaya naman napatingin na rin ako kung sino 'yon.