Tea Boy: A Deacury Fic

Chapter 58: Just Tell Me Why

-Freddie's POV-

I was finishing up cleaning the living room. Fluffing pillows, dusting the fan, and making the sure our curtains is free of allergens. All of this was being done while I was waiting for Deaky to return from his first therapy session. Another fifteen minutes passed and John finally came home.

"Hey… you're back. How'd it go, baby?", I greeted. "I went. Isn't that enough for today?", he blatantly responded. "Of course it is. I'm proud of you for just showing up.", I grinned. "It felt weird just talking about it and saying stuff out loud. I felt stupid.", he sadly sighed sitting on the couch. "You’re not stupid, John. You’re just not used to opening up like that.", I reassured him.

Deaky shook his head. "She asked questions I almost didn’t have answers for. About why I do these things and why I push people away.", he responded.
"That’s part of the process, you know. Figuring it out slowly.", I smiled. "She said it’s gonna take time. I hate that I want it fixed as soon as possible.", he complained. "I know. But this is the first step. You’re already doing something brave.", I replied and kissed his lips tenderly.

"You really think I can do this?", Deaky asked. "I know you can. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t believe in you.", I hummed. "Thanks… for not giving up on me.", he responded lightly. "I never will.", I replied.

-John's POV-

Now's the perfect opportunity to ask him.

"Fred can I ask you something?", I sweetly questioned. "Of course!", he said.
"Why don’t you want to… be with me like that anymore?"

"John—"

"Just answer me, alright? I’m not stupid, I notice these details. I just want to confirm that it’s not just me imagining things.", I confided. "It’s not about not wanting you. It’s about wanting you to be okay first.", he answered. I didn't believe him. "So what, you think I’m too broken to touch now? Am I too bruised for your pleasure? Just tell me what it is!", I argued. "No, babe, it's none of that. I just think you’re healing. And I don’t want you confusing comfort with obligation or thinking being close to me is something you owe.", he explains.

I sighed. "I guess I’m just… scared you’ll wake up one day and realize I’m too much." "I know. And I’m sorry if I’ve made you feel unwanted. That’s not what this is.", Freddie replied. "Then what is it? Really, what is it?", I probed.
"It’s me loving you enough to let you breathe. Let you heal without adding pressure.", he softly responded.

"You’re really staying through all this mess, aren't you?", I lightly chuckled. "Every step. I’m not going anywhere. I’m right here. Remember that.", he reassured. "I appreciate you for sticking around.", I grinned. "Yes of course. And now that you're here, time for a treat! You remember I promised you one after your session.", Freddie hummed.

I was curious to see what he had in store as I watched him walk in to the kitchen. This could be another made up drink or something. He came back with two glasses of...lemonade? But as I figured, it wasn't ordinary. See, Freddie's been trying out different recipes lately for different mock tails rather than some of the ordinary. The glass he handled was full of lemonade, but only that, it seemed like he tried making a blueberry lemonade since I saw blue liquid at the bottom along with actual blueberries, with a sherbet ice cream blended in. I gave it a few sips and....I wasn't disappointed.

Of course as I mentioned it wasn't ordinary, but it was very different. "Well, do you like it?", Freddie asked nervously. "This is incredibly different than any other mock tail you've made, I must say I'm impressed.", I compliment. "Thank you, I'm really glad you like it.", he chuckled. "I'm glad you took that well. Now after this, my mind needs to rest.", I said.

After I finished a few minutes later, I handed Freddie my empty glass and went back in the bedroom for a nap.

As long as I continue this " therapy " I guess I'll be okay, but for now, just keep it up I suppose.