taraji h.
the rain had stopped, and the sun was out finally. i got myself together– it took me a minute to get dressed since i kept pausing and staring off into space. i tried to eat since my body felt really weak, but anything i put to my mouth just made me even more sick.
i threw on a knit polo shirt, denim shorts, and some white retro 3's. my hair just in a high bun. my go to style when i don't feel like seeing a barber. the minute my phone came back, i thought the shade room posted me the way i had so many missed calls and messages from damn near everybody checking up on me and making sure i "didn't do nothing wild" like as if that's me..
i ended up saving the therapist number. i was gon call when i got the chance. i did call my parents back, mama just wanted to make sure i was good... and her husband– him too. i still don't mess with his trifling ass but he my pops nonetheless. i called gran and it was the same thing, making sure im good. she sighed deep like she was holding her breath until she heard my voice again.
i was pulling into tasia's driveway. i didn't call win and autumn back yet. i was gon surprise em. i cut my car off and stepped out, heading straight for the door. i saw diane car in the driveway.
i knocked and let the door swing open whenever it did, and when it did tasia smiled big, "you look–" she was interrupted by the sound of bryce yelling while running to the door. he ran straight into my leg.
i smiled and crouched down to pick him up, "hey, baby." i smothered him in kisses. i put my shades back on so i could hide my watery eyes. tasia noticed and rubbed my arm softly.
"did you miss your mama?" tasia cooed, tickling bryce.
he squirmed in my arms. his little laugh was contagious and cute.
"i missed you so much." i put him on my shoulder and his tiny arms wrapped around my neck. "is it ok if i keep him for the week? im gonna keep autumn and winter too. i wanna take all of them somewhere fun." after all, still had to ask for permission since i was only able to get him on weekends.
"yeah, sure. just call me if everything becomes too much and ill be there."
"...actually, would you like to come? hang out for the day. just this day." i just needed somebody to be there incase it goes left.
"you sure?"
"yeah. the kids could use your presence."
she smirked, folding her arms. "the kids or you?"
"both" i smiled.
"okay. we're gonna shower and change. in the meantime, you go ahead and see the girls and let me know where you're going so i can drive there."
"okay." i pampered bryce in more kisses before handing him to tasia. i paused when i realized he was holding onto my shirt tighter than expected.
"bryce, come on baby. let's get you dressed." tasia reached out and took him. his bottom lip quivered before he started crying all while reaching out for me.
i poked my bottom lip out and took him back. "okay. okay mama's here." he put his head on my chest, sniffling still. i kissed her head and rubbed his back in small circles. "ill get him dressed at the house. do what you gotta do and hit me when you finish. i'll send the lo."
