Teach me (L. Hemmings Smut FF)

Chapter 51

*Luke's POV*
"But it doesn't matter now, does it? Luke Hemmings is dead and Nathan Peterson is just my temporary architecture professor." she tries so hard to keep the tears from falling and I know I always tend to make things worse than they are so I should just shut up.

I missed her so much and now thinking about everything she said makes me want to hate myself. I did put her through a terrible thing. I couldn't even imagine my life with her dead, and I didn't think about what she was supposed to go through. Every day away from her was the worst day ever, but I kept going because I knew she was alive. She didn't have that assurance, she thought I was gone forever.

Even now I shouldn't be talking to her, I know I made that deal with Rachel, but if she finds out Y/n is here, she will kill her.
"You're absolutely right." I say bluntly. I lost Y/n, is clear to me that she will never forgive me for what I did to her and even if that was possible, Rachel is still alive and I don't think she takes her Schizophrenia pills, so I can't put Y/b in danger for my desires.

She gulps nodding amd I go to my desk to take a paper.
"And this is your assignment, the deadline is Friday, you weren't today in class, but this will be the first grade this semester." I hand her the paper with the essay's highlights.

"Wow, so it will be like this, huh?" she asks smiling looking at the paper." I nod when she looks back at me.
"10 paper essay, in two days, great." she says sarcastically and ugh, I wish this whole thing wasn't this hard.
"Well, you better start working, like I said, you'll be graded."

*Y/n's POV*
For some reason this feel nice, but I'm not sure either of us is good at pretending like this. This whole thing- it's not done, I still have feelings for him.
"I just can't-" I stop myself from saying that I can't do that and for a split second I just look at him and realize how many times I have thought about sharing a moment with Luke, just to know he's alive even if it meant to just be my teacher and nothing more. And I got this chance now.

"uhm.. thank you, Mr Pet- Hemmings." looking at that innocent and true smile on his face make me even more happy with the words I went for.
"See you tomorrow in class?" he asks and I nod "Sure." I get out of his office and every part of my body tells me it was a mistake to come here today, especially the piece of paper from my hand.

I sigh and start walking towards Joe's, so I can meet Charlotte and to go shopping with her. I should probably start working on my assignment, but I'm too lazy to do that.

Of course, as I get there, Charlotte tells me she's just got to the mall so I choose to skype Michael. I missed him.
"Hey Mike." I talk in front of my phone with the headphones plugged in. "Hey Y/n, wow, it's like ages since I saw you." he jokes because only yesterday I skyped him, but as usual he likes teasing me about calling him every day. I still feel guilty for him punching Luke.

"I miss you." I say and he smiles laying in bed. "You went and talked to him, right?" he shakes his head and I just smile showing all my teeth and then relax all my facial muscles in a serious expression. "I just .. I have no idea what is wrong with me." I start complaining to Michael and aftr I tell him the whole stort he just smiles and tells me "I'm proud of you Y/n." and I don't understand why he said that because I somehow wanted to be scolded for talking to Luke, I wanted him to tell me that I made a mistake.
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And so my the days went by and I needed to finish my paper. Luke wants us to pick a building, any building and write 10 pages in which we should include the process of the construction of the building and the reason why we picked the building.

I'm not an Architecture major, I have no idea what to write about buildings, heck the most amazing construction was Luke's house and that's just because I got the best kind of memories there.
All day long I've been searching for an interesting building, but nothing inspires me.