Teach me (L. Hemmings Smut FF)

Chapter 27

I could feel my the earth moving from underneath my feet.

I was standing in front of my 5 months dead boyfriend.

My mind wasn't in its place and I couldn't say a single word out of my mouth. How is this possible? ..and why did he just say that Luke is dead ..? What the fuck is happening.

"W-why are you h-here?" I ask, my voice being all shaky.

He just looks at me closing his eyes. "You should go." He tells me after a few moments of staring.

I have no idea what on earth is happening? How could he be here...? Is he really alive?

"Is this really you Luke?" I ask stepping closer. I need to know this isn't just my imagination playing with my mind.

"I already told you. Luke's dead." He shows no emotion in his voice while mine is filled with confusion.

My feelings overwhelm me and I know right now hot tears are running down my cheeks.

"You shouldn't have come here." He says looking at me like nothing is wrong with me.

He steps away and I feel his shoulder brushing against mine and in this moment all of me crushes as I know it is him. I feel his parfume leaving me breathless, but his coldness is pushing me away a thousands years. It's like he doesn't even know who I am.

My knees break and as he leaves behind me I fall down on the hard floor. All the strength I build in 5 months melted like butter on a hot toast. My thoughts colided and I was done.

It was him. He was here. I don- I don't understand anything... They found the body ...it was burned. He's dead... He couldn't be here...

I hear my phone ringing but I'm too lost to answer. Why was he acting like this? Y/N you need answers. As soon as I hear the loud bang of the door I realize I can't stay in this mess.. I will really go insane. I feel my body lifting and right now I'm chasing ghosts again.

"Wait!!" I yell as he goes down on the stairs.

"Fuck Luke. Don't run again!" I scream and he stops. As he turns around and I see his face, my mind starts to lose it again.

"This is not possible. You died in that fire." I whisper and he doesn't say anything.

"How?" I ask,tears threatening to show again.

"You better answer that phone." He says and I take my phone out and throw it on the wall. "Fuck Luke answer me goddammit!!" I see my phone breaking and Luke closing his eyes at the loud sound.

"As far as everybody knows. Luke is dead. End of story." He says and now I'm truly pissed off.

"What?... THE FUCK IS WRONG HERE?" I snap and he shakes his head.

"You were alive all this time?" I ask escaping tears I don't want to shed.

He gulps slowly looking at me, his face softening. I feel the whole in my heart getting bigger.

"Why didn't you come to look for me?" My head is pumping so hard right now I think it'll explode.

"You thought I was dead. I wanted to free you from myself and in the end it worked.." His words cut so deep in my chest.

"What? How could you say that? What the heck is wrong with you Luke? HOW COULD YOU PLAY WITH MY FEELINGS LIKE THAT? DO YOU KNOW HOW I FELT WHEN THEY TOLD ME YOU WERE DEAD? DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID TO ME... WHAT YOU ARE DOING TO ME? DO YOU LUKE? DO YOU KNOW HOW I WANTED TO TAKE MY LIFE JUST SO I CAN BE WITH YOU? DO YOU KNOW THAT? HOW CRUEL COULD YOU BE TO DO THAT TO ME ?"

My tears probably washed away all the make up I had today. He stays shocked in front of me yelling at him and I can see him holding back some tears.

"But you are free now." He says not moving.

"You know ...all this time I thought I was the one insane ..but Luke, you lost your sanity I swear. I FUCKING LOVED YOU! AND I THOUGHT IT WAS MY FAULT YOU WERE DEAD? DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO LIVE WITH THAT FEELING?"I shout at him and he lets go of a few tears.

"I'm sorry ..but it was the right thing to do. You would've ended up dead..." He whispers and I roll my eyes. "You know I'm so sick of hearing this lame excuse. You didn't have to fake a death to let me know you don't want me ... It would've been easier if you just told me you didn't want me." I whisper also feeling my strength leaving me again.

"I did it for you! You don't know how painful it was to see you every day with that biker ...but I knew you are safer with him." He raises his voice at me.

"Yeah ... I guess I am. For instance he wouldn't fake his own death and leave me with no hope for a better day..." I whisper and try to leave.

"You know ... Now I'm curious. Does Ashton know about this?" I stop walking and turn to face him asking this.

He looks long at me and shakes his head. "No... I couldn't let anyone know. If I wanted you to be safe I knew I had to give up-" "LUKE SPARE ME,OK? don't.. Just don't say that ...you did it for you. If you loved me, you would've done anything you could to keep me next to you... So let's just say you did this to get away from me, but heck Luke, Ashton didn't deserve this. He needed his best friend.." I say slowly.

"I didn't do it for myself. You really wereim danger with me." He speaks and I almost laugh.

"Do you know he got married?" I tell him and he nods. "You are a mad person. We all needed you here."

He doesn't say another word and I just walk away. It's true, I need to feel him so bad, but he betrayed me.. Us.

He said he watched me and Michael everyday. He let me suffer so hard and I don't think I will be able to forgive him for that.. Even if I love him more than anyone else... He watched me in my suffering and didn't put an end to it. He was the only one who could make the pain go away ...he was the only thing I needed.. He knew that and still let me get hurt. How could you do that to a person you love?

I was almost becoming a normal person, I was almost done grieving him... And I had to follow him here ..get my heart and my phone broken again. It's like he likes watching me suffer.

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Lalala ...I updated :* hope u like it. If I keep updating everyday the chapters will probably be as short as this one as I don't have time to write long chapters like I did in the winter break.
Well Luke's back ..who's happy about this? Hehe
-KG ♥