"You ok?" Michael asks me as I get in my room. Charlotte and Jake are settling in the guest room and Michael offered Andy a stay at his place and Andy is currently downstairs with mom.
"Yeah. Why wouldn't I be?" I ask smiling as I toss my bags on the bed.
"Because whenever you're upset you tend to get involved in all kinds of activities, like getting high or planning a party that takes all of your time...so let me rephrase my question. What happened that upset you like this?
I sigh looking at him. I didn't think that all these things happening with Luke effected me in any way ..at least not this time. I really thought I was doing okay but sometimes I forget Michael knows me better than I know myself.
"So?" He asks again.
"Don't think this is the right time for this." I try to smile to heading to the door. As I open my door he presses his hand on it and closes it.
"Why are you always letting him hurt you like this?" He asks and I k ow he means Luke.
I gulp as I know this time wasn't his fault. "He came here, you know? So I'll ask again. What happened between you two?" Michael asks behind me.
"We.." I start turning to face him and go in the middle of my room. "We slept together and I wasn't sure I want him back and so he left.. ok? I couldn't tell him to stay cause I know I didn't know what I want."
"So he left again after seeing you unsure of whether you want him back or not after what he did to you?!" Michael seems way too pissed off.
"No. There's more to the story. He really wanted me back and he said he would wait for me as long as it takes.. I just didn't know whether I wanted him to do that or not so you shouldn't be mad at him." I explain and he sighs.
"Maybe you should talk to him." Michael suggests.
"I don't know Mike." I sigh "I mean if I talk to him we'll just fight and then kiss and then I don't know what will happen because we're in a vicious circle where one of us always ends up getting hurt... I guess what I need right now is to know who I am and to know I can live without him. Cause these last two years were all about him. I guess I just need time to let those wounds heal ... to the both of us." I say shrugging and Michael nods lightly.
"Ok. Let's get you down stairs and plan that party to make it the best one this year." He smiled as he snakes his arm around my shoulders.
"Where's Allisa anyway?" I ask him and he gives me the 'she's not in the picture anymore' look.
"We broke up at the beginning of the month." He says as we grt downstairs. "But on skype you told me she was great and-" "Well she is doing great with that guy she cheated on me with." He laughs rolling his eyez and I stop moving.
"Wait what?" I ask him confused.
"She wasn't for me after all." He says shrugging.
"But- why haven't you told me this before?" I ask him.
"Like you said, we've both been busy and I didn't want to bug you with my problems." Michael started walking towards the kitchen where everyone else was.
"But you know you can always tell me ...especially this kind of stuff." I feel so bad for not being there for him. He's always here for me and I see myself as his best friend but I didn't actually know he broke up with Allisa for three weeks now.
As I get in the kitchen I see Charlotte, Jake Andy mom and dad sitting at the table, talking. I guess I got over my dad issue and I'm beginning to accept him in the family once again.
"You guys want some Apple Pie? It's delicious." Charlotte asks and I nod.
"Yeah I know. Mom's recipe is a special one." I smile and we sit down at the table.
Ever since I came here, I haven't talked at all to Luke and I feel relieved in some way. Because I know I can live my life without him in it. Christmas was so peaceful with no drama at all, just a quiet family and friends dinner. As we plan the New Year's party we're always together. Me, Michael, Charlotte, Jake, Andy amd Jenny and Calum. We go out the seven of us and visit the little town and in some nights we meet at my place and hang out and play all sort of games or watch movies. This has actually been one of my best holidays ever.
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Teach me (L. Hemmings Smut FF)
Fanfiction"You thought it was impossible and yet you fell in love with me..." "you taught me how to love" "and then you died. Teach me how to live without you." "I can't do that now babe."
