Teach me (L. Hemmings Smut FF)

Chapter 55

"Michael?" I say as we're standing on my porch just arriving after I stated all day with him today.
"Yeah?" he smiles looking down at me still having his arm around me.
"Would it sound crazy if I told you I love you?" I stop walking and I just look at him. His eyes widen a little, a smile spreading on his face as he slowly shakes his head no.

"Nah, you know I love you too, kiddo." he smiles pinching my nose.
"Not like that." I try to find my voice. Am I really doing this?
His smile fades slowly watching me.
"I mean, you're the one who stood next to me when everyone else left and I know the time is not right. I just- I wanted you to know how I feel." we exchange looks and he's not saying anything.

"And I love y-" "I'm with Allisa." he interrupts me not moving a muscle.
"I'm with Allisa, and I know I love her Y/n." he repeats and I nod quickly.
"I know, I know you do which is why I don't want anything from you. I jist felt lile I owed it to you to tell you exactly how I felt and I love you." I smile as I know at least he doesn't think abiut himself as a screw up that somehow something was wrong with him that I didn't love him back, because it's not. I can feel it now. I love him, I always did love him.

He nods and I see little tears in his eyes.
"You really are something." he says and it leaves me confused.
"I honestly don't know how you do it. I mean, what did I ever do wrong to you?" he asks and I furrow my brows seeing him raising his voice.
"I don't- I don't understand. What do you mean?"
"All day you lied to me and I stayed with you because I thought you will maybe feel bad and come true, but you really pushed it this time. You know, for one second I actually believed you." he turns his back walking away.
"Woah. Wait. Michael, what the fuck are you talking about? I meant every word I said." I follow him in quick steps.

"Really? And that's why you didn't tell me you went to see him last night?" he faces me and I can tell he's mad.
"I- I..." I actually don't know what to say to him.
"You- You..what? You know? I'm so tired of your shit. Like seriously, you were right about one thing tonight though. I did stay by you when no one else did. And I thought that maybe because of all the days I wasted listening to all the crap about him I would deserve an honest answer, but you looked me in the eyes and lied to me with cold blood." he growls and my heart starts pumping fast.

"and where was I supposed to go last night? My dad had just made an appearance after ages and you were with that other girl. I didn't even know he was home- Heck I didn't even know it was his house anymore." I say feeling tears roll on my cheeks.

"Stop making excuses for why you lied to me. I only asked you what you did last night and I would've been more than okay if you told me you went to see him. I would've been okay if you told me you slept with him, Y/n, because all I ever cared about was you being happy. But I saw you there last night, and you lied to me not mentioning him and then you told me you love me? Am I really supposed to be your rebound after I don't know, after he told he doesn't want you anymore?" he asks and this is the first time I saw him like this...angry and yelling.

"You were there?" I whisper not able to find my voice. "Yes, I was there because I was worried and I knew I'd find you there." he doesn't yell anymore.
"Well I'm sorry you think that low of me. I didn't tell you I went to his place, not because he didn't want me back- because hell knows how much he does- but because I was afraid of this exact moment would happen. I was afraid you wouldn't believe me if I said I loved you, because I know you too Michael and I know how insecure you become when I talk about Luke. Here's your honest answer, at least now you don't have to waste anymore of your days listening to me talking crap, right." I say wiping the tears that still fall and turn around. I can't look at him anymore. I know people tend to say mean things when they are angry, but it was too much for me.