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13| Love You , Love Me Part 2
Genesis
I opened the doors to Burger Blast , going in . It was a small business so the spacing wasn't big . I saw King instantly , walking over to him . He had his head down as he was texting . I sat down in front him , not bothering to say anything or take my jacket off . Really I just wanted to go back home and sleep .
He looked up at me , locking his phone . I side smiled as he reached on the side of him . He pulled out flowers , handing them to me .
"Sorry for your loss." He said low . I grabbed them , slightly smiling , batting my eyes from any tears .
"Thanks." I said , laying them across my lap . He sighed .
"Genesis.. Just... " he trailed off . "What's wrong?" He asked .
I shook my head , "Nothing." I said. I pulled my coat together as I leaned against the table . I had just noticed we were alone , with no Kassidy .
"No seriously Genesis , I am not playing." He said . I frowned.
"You know too?" I asked lowly.
"I'm the first one to consider it. I spent 9 months with you everyday , you didn't think I would notice you acting different?" He asked. I leaned back in my seat , looking away at the floor .
King
I watched as she avoided eye contact with me again .
"Just talk to me."
She looked at me before looking back at the floor . I saw tears start flooding from her face as she just closed her eyes . I gave her a moment before she burst into full blown tears , putting her head into her hands . I rubbed my face as I leaned on my elbow on the table , waiting .
"I just can't do it." She finally said . She took one of the napkins from the dispenser , wiping her eyes. She looked down as she sniffled.
"Keep going , just let it out ."
"I'm a fuck up. I'm sure all my family would probably disown me just seeing how I'm doing right now. I couldn't imagine what my mom would say , what my dad would say .."
"What my brother would say , what my sister would say . I fucked up between us . Darnell got killed because of me , everyone hates me . I can barely take care of myself . I can't eat , I feel like I don't deserve to ."
"I don't deserve the people in my life and the love they show me. I just ... I don't know ... I hate myself . The pills just put me at ease . I didn't notice I was starting to overdo it , I just wanted relief . I want happiness . I want peace . I want love and to not be such a burden but I am . I'm sorry . I'm sorry for the way I hurt you and everybody else . Like you once said , you wouldn't have to worry about certain shit if I wouldn't have came around.." She finished , with a light chuckle sniffling heavily .
"I just wanna be permanently out the picture. Just .. Gone." She said before breaking down again. She had used up to 3 pieces of tissues just that quick . I had my hands over the bottom half of my face , just listening -That's all I wanted to do right now , that's what she needed most of all .
"I think my body is reacting because ... Next week is the date my parents got into the car wreck almost five years ago. Shit is just heavy on my mind." She added .
I waited to make sure she was finished but she was quiet for a good while , just continuing to wipe her face . Everyone glanced our way with sympathetic look but went back to consuming their food eventually .
I stood up , taking the flowers out her lap as I pulled her up , bringing her into a hug . She hugged back tightly , starting to cry again .
I hugged her tightly around her neck as I laid my hand on her head. Even after almost 4 months , even after all the shit I said and how much I tried to deny I did , I loved Genesis so much and knowing that she is going through all this and this is how she choosing to handle it , hurts .
"Genesis.." I started .
"Hm?"
"You still mean alot to me and half of what you're feeling about yourself is untrue . You're young , you're gonna make mistakes , they would understand that and they wouldn't be disappointed. I think they would be proud considering you're almost 20 and finished school , don't have children and is at least trying ma.."
"Nobody hates you . We just don't like the fact you're treating yourself like this . Stop being so hard on yourself . All that shit that happen with us months ago . I'm over it , you're over it I assume . We can wash it from our memory and just throw that paper away and turn to a brand new page. Are you willing to do that?" I pulled her away so I could look at her face.
She nodded .
"It's done. It's gone. We won't remember nothing in the past unless it was the good times , ok? I forgive you , I did some shit too. You forgive me?" I asked .
"I forgive you." She said with a sniffle followed .
"I love you Genesis , I never stopped."
"I love you too." She said , holding my hands out in front her .
"Two more things .. One , those pills I gave you , give them to me." She let my hands go , going through her bag .
She looked at them as she bit down on her lip , slowly handing them to me . She had a tight grip but I finally got them .
"Imma help you through this , alright? We all are . We're here to help. This is really serious gene." I nagged , she nodded , looking down. I decided that she's been grilled enough on that . Not only from me , from Raheem and I'm sure if Marek finds out , he'll share a few words along with the rest of her friends around here .
I licked over my bottom lip as I looked at her , still looking down. I picked her chin back up .
"Can I take you on a date?"
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The bad of the past is washed between them so wash it from the comments from now on! Deal? If not, it'll be deleted . (:
True love & support from friends! I kinda teared up writing that . Can relate personally to some parts . 💕
