Thug's Nanny 2

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44 | unbothered?

Genesis

I put my bag on top of the counter , along with the keys . I heard King shut the door as I started taking my shoes off . "Why's everyone so quiet ?" Kassidy semi whispered before King sat the carseat down beside me.

"Genesis ?"

I looked up at him with a slight smile . "Hm?"

"Talk to me.."

"Really isn't anything to talk about." I smiled, putting my shoes up against the wall .

"Genesis we gotta talk..i know it's not easy to even think about but--" I cut him off .

"King , my first child , my son the one I carried for almost 9 months has leukemia . He could die  within months . Things happen." I said , bending down and taking Kee out his carseat.

I picked him up on my hip, grinning at him as he looked at me. I kissed his lips and nose before placing him on my shoulder. I was about to walk away but King grabbed my waist . He came in front of me.

"Genesis please. The doctor said we could take him in for treatments and that it's easier to cure babies because the--."

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath . "King..I don't..want to talk about it right now."  I said sternly as my voice cracked a bit . I cleared my throat and walked pass him to Keenan's room.

I sat down in the rocking chair , looking around . I looked at the handprints we made on the wall and smiled. I looked at Kee's name across the wall we had just put there about a week ago.

I let out a soft breath , turning on some soft baby music as I leaned back and started rocking him to sleep . I rubbed his back and hummed to soothe him , hoping to clear my mind in the process .

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I had finally got Kee to sleep and was walking to my bedroom . I opened the door to see Kas playing with King as he concentrated on his phone . I was about to walk into the bathroom until he called me. I turned towards him .

"Yes?"

"I just wanted to show you some centers I found .." He trailed off . I nodded .

" Okay , let me take a shower first." He gestured a nod , starting to look back at his phone . I walked through the doors into the bathroom , closing and locking them behind me .

I leaned my head on the door for a moment as my mind started to race again . I went Into my closet , gathering some clothes then starting the shower .

As the water heated up , I went through the drawers for another bar of soap . As I opened the bottom drawer , I noticed my antidepressants pill bottle in its lock cap.

I looked at it and chewed on my bottom lip as my chest felt heavy. I shook my head , grabbing the box of bar of soap and shut the drawer quickly . I unwrapped it out the box and stripped down out of my clothes.

Getting in the shower for a few seconds , I finally felt alone enough to get it out . It seemed as though my cries soon became screams as I punched the walls of the shower .