Front Row Ticket

2i.

special chapter twelve
l u k e
(who else?)

Brynn still isn't back in her room, she's still staying in the emergency room. And then the nurses came out, followed by the doctor.

"Her cancer has already blocked off a part of her lung. It collapsed and it became infected. This is why she couldn't breathe earlier. She has advanced cancer, and her body does not have the strength to fight off the infection, even with the strong antibiotics. This infection could not be treated anymore... We did our best, I'm so sorry Mrs. Clemetine, we couldn't do anything about it anymore."

I glanced over at Rose and her mouth was covered by her hand. I pulled her to my chest and immediately my shirt was soaked.

Whatever the doctor just has said, hasn't sinked in to me. Brynn's a fighter, and besides,  she will never leave me.

Hopefully.

The doctor has let us in and opened the door. Rose ran to her and I held the door. I don't want to go in.

I don't know what hurts more, the inevitable or seeing her hurt. Even if she is unconscious, I know she is trying her best to survive.

The oxygen is the only thing thats is keeping her with us, really. Without that, she's gone.

Rose is hugging her and crying on her stomach. I couldn't even get any closer.  She moved away from her and sat on the couch; sobbing.

I hesitantly walked to her and took the chair that Rose was previously sitting on. I tried my best not to let a single tear drop down because it wouldn't help Rose.

I moved my mouth closer to her ear and whispered, "I love you, Brynn. You can go if you want to. Just remember I love you."

I felt my eyes water and quickly wiped it with my sleeves. I kissed her in the cheek and almost as if she was just waiting for me, her heartbeat went into a flat line.

Rose raised her head up and ran to her. "Call the doctor, Luke!!" I was shaking. I couldn't move. Was she just really waiting for me?

I shakingly lifted my arm and pressed the button. I ran away from the room and screamed for a doctor.

Everyone looked at me, Jack stood up, and I didn't care. Brynn's life is a stake. Brynn's.......dying.

No matter how much I want the doctors to save her, I don't want to be selfish. I don't want to lose her, but I don't want her to suffer.

Doctors came but I didn't let them in.
"Excuse me, sir. Excuse me!"

"Luke! What are you doing? Brynn's dying! We'll just be selfish if we keep her alive! We're keeping her alive for us! Not for her! She's gonna suffer!"

It was too late when I glanced back at the doctor because they have already entered the room. They performed the electrical CPR to her.

I couldn't take it. I walked out of the room, ran through the hallway and in the parking. I sat on the little parking divider.

We haven't even gotten the chance to spend time together. She and I haven't even been together. It was all so sudden.

It's almost as if God just wanted us to see each other one last time before he takes her from me... again. This time, it's forever.

I heard some running footsteps and when it stopped, I looked up to see Ashton.

"Hey."

I didn't greet him. I just looked at him and pushed my head on my knees.

I felt Ashton's hand on my back. He started rubbing circles on my back. That's when I started crying.

No matter how hard I try not to keep myself strong, I can't. Because it's Brynn we're talking about here.

"I honestly don't know what to say to you because I don't know how you feel. I've gotten somewhat close to her, but you were closer to her. I know it hurts more for you, but I'll just stay by your side."

All the memories we had since we first met up to the concert all flashed. I couldn't help but cry even more.

Ashton's phone rang and he took it. "Oh okay..."

She's dead. She's gone. I glanced at my wristwatch and it was 3:40 pm. I could already picture locking myself a room and never come out.

But I know, she wouldn't want me to do that. She's gone, I repeated myself. But at least wherever she is now, at least she is better.

She doesn't have cancer. She doesn't have her amnesia anymore. Wherever she is right now, at least she can remember me. Remember.... us.

I'll think of it that way, instead. At least now, we both can remember the good times we had together. But separated.

We would be laughing at our old memories, far from each other. We would be dreaming, separated.

I don't know how long I can last without her by my side, knowing she will never come back.

I don't want to continue the rest of the concert anymore. I lost interest in the whole band now, to be honest, but I don't want to think of myself only.

There's Ash, Cal, Mikey that would be affected.  I know people like them would be there by my side.

They may be losers and dorks, but they mean a lot to me. Without them, I am nothing. I'll be no one.

I know no matter what happens, no matter how many times I fall, I know there'll be 4 people to catch me.

I may only see three, but I know, there are 4 people catching me. She is just invisble.

A/N:
Sorry it took forever for me to update, but hey, I already did! School has been great and i love my teacher so freakin much for grouping with him  😉 Thanks to that, he starts to notice me already!