The girl in the shadows: Cameron Dallas

Chapter 37

Chapter 37

Caroline's POV

I could feel someone shake me.
"Caroline" someone whispered.
As much as I didn't want to I opened my eyes.
It was Cameron.
I sit up quickly. To quickly, I kind of blacked out a little.

"Why are you sleeping in the hallway?" He asked sitting next to me.
"Because you were with Brit and I didn't want to be there"

His face went from confusion to shame.
"You slept in the hallway so you didn't have to see me and Brit together?"

I didn't say anything because that's exactly what happened. I stood up and went in the room.

Thankfully Brit wasn't in there. I grabbed my clothes and went to change in the bathroom.
I wasn't upset anymore I was pissed.
  I don't even know what I was pissed at.
The entire situation was upsetting and heart breaking.
I couldn't do it anymore. I wanted to fight for him I wanted to fight for us.

But I'm tired of fighting. I've been fighting my entire life. This tour was supposed to be fun and it was a chance for me to escape the pain from my foster parents. But instead this pain is even worse.

I would take a punch in the stomach over how I'm feeling right now. That boy has a piece of my heart. But I have to let him go. I have to say goodbye even if he takes that piece of my heart with him.

I change into my pajamas and go back into the room. He's sitting on the edge of his bed.
I grab my headphones and my phone and lay in bed facing away from him.

He turned the lamp of and laid back down.
  Three songs in I pause my music.

Cameron is crying. I could hear him sniffle and try to hide it in his pillow.

  It took everything I had not to get up and hold him, to make everything okay. But I didn't because if I tried to fix him then I would just be breaking myself even more.
And there isn't much left of me at this point.
I lay as still as possible until I fall asleep listening to the boy I love cry his heart out.

**

The next morning I decide to go to the nearest hospital  before anyone woke up to get my cast off.

A security guard led me to the back so I wouldn't cause an uproar out front.
The hospital waiting room was almost empty. Other than me and a couple in their 20's with a baby.

  "Caroline the doctor will see you now" a brunette young woman yelled from the double doors.

  My phone kept buzzing with the boys asking where I was at. I didn't answer any of them.
I was leaving the hospital with a cast free arm way to quickly.

I was going to use this time to think about what to do with Cameron but everything around me seemed to distract me.

Like the way the dad sitting across from looked at his wife with a special light in his eyes.

   It was times like this I missed my parents more than anything. I always thought that my parents had magical powers that automatically made everything okay.

I was wrong they didn't make everything okay but they convinced me that once you believed that something good could come out of it there was no stopping you.

   As we pulled up to the back of the hotel I could feel my heart start racing.

   My first thought was to wish to go home. Then I realized I had no home,

  Where was I even going after this tour. I turn 18 in a month, then what?
I've applied to colleges but I have no money.

I have nothing.

I took my time walking back to the lobby where I assume everyone is at.
  I wish I had Cam-

I cut my thoughts off before they went to far. I needed to be done with him.
  I've only caused hurt and heartbreak to both of us.

   When I got to the lobby sure enough everyone was there.
"Where have you been?!" Sam said running up and hugging me.

Everyone did the same except for Cameron. Of course Brit was next to him.

"Hey Caroline." She said in a fake high pitched voice.

  "Hi Bree." I said rolling my eyes.

  "It's Brit." She said glaring at me.

  Taylor coughed to hide is laugh. "I went to get my cast off." I said holding up my arm.
   Again everyone crowded around me looking at my arm.
"Guys you have another show tonight so everyone to the ballroom!"

  I fell to the back of the group and eventually Nash joined me.
"So what were you going to say last night?" I asked.
"Oh it's nothing I can tell you later."
His words sounded rushed. He sped back up and walked beside Carter.

  "Are you going to turn the lights off at first or no?" Mahogany asked once I was sitting next to her at the DJ booth.

"Actually yes, I want them off and then halfway through someone turn them on"
It's something about seeing everyone's faces as soon as the lights turn on that makes me light up inside.

All to soon the ballroom was filled with screaming fans. We went around taking pictures with everyone before the show started.

  This time there was no hating fans asking why I was there. It was then I questioned why I ever hid.

   I stood on the side and just watched as some fans cried as Cameron came over and took a picture with them.
He really does make an impact.
  As always he looked perfect tonight with his Nash hoodie, tan shorts, and maroon vans.

  The lights when out. A beautiful silence filled the ballroom and I went on stage.
  This show I decided to sing grand piano by Nicki Minaj.

"Am I just a fool
Blinded and stupid for loving you
Am I just a silly girl
So young and naive
To think you were
The one who came to take claim
Of this heart
Cold hearted shame you remained
Just afraid in the dark
And now the people
The people love talking
The love saying that you have been playing my heart
Like a grand piano..."

They switched on the lights and felt the electricity run through me as a cheer went through the crowd.
  Each lyric was aimed straight to Cameron.

Author note:

Hello!!! I'm home sick today so here's an update 😂😂 we are so close to the end 🙊 at the end I will put a list of people who really helped with this story and who really supportive since the beginning 💜 but I love all of you including the ghost readers!!!

~shannon🚀🎈