The girl in the shadows: Cameron Dallas

Chapter 40

Chapter 40

Caroline's POV

   I woke up stiff from Nash's arm. He was snoring lightly beside me so I quietly got out of bed and headed down to the cafeteria.

   When I got out into the hallway of course the only two people in the hall were Shawn and Cameron walking together.

   They were only a few feet behind me. I was so close to taking the stairs before I decided against it.

   Let me tell you, nothing was more awkward than that elevator ride.
  "Where's nash?" Shawn asked.

"He's still sleeping, I was going down to get him breakfast," i said.
  I really just want this ride to end.

   Nothing was said after that. Cameron's eyes mimicked mine.
  Red and bloodshot.

   Finally the ride ended and we made it to the cafeteria.

  All eyes were on me as I grabbed a juice and a bagel for Nash.
  I was planning on staying down here but I really didn't want to answer a ton of questions right now.
  I went back to the elevators when a hand grabbed mine.

I turn to find Cameron looking at me with sad eyes.
"Can we talk?" He asked.

  "There is nothing to talk about," I said walking back to the elevators.
  Of course I had to wait for them making the conversation even more awkward.

  "Please, Caroline I really want to talk about this!" He said.

   "Look Cameron, I'm tired of getting hurt and honestly that's all you're doing so please just-"

He cut me off by crashing his lips against mine.

"What the hell?!"
I pulled away quickly to see Nash in the now open elevators.
  

  I dropped the juice and bagel.
"Nash I swear I- !"

"No save it, I should have known you would be the whore of Magcon." He said.
  Wow that hurt.
  I walked out of the elevator and to the lobby.
I wanted to run after him, but he needed time.
"Caroline-,"
I cut Cam off before he could say anything.

"No Cameron, you ruined my life so please just leave me alone."

    I went back to the cafeteria for another juice. It became dead silent when I walked in.
  Matthew was trying to get Nash to stop crying.
  I could almost feel my heart shatter in a million pieces.
I grabbed the juice and sat at the other end of the table next to Taylor and Carter.

As soon as I sat down they got up and went to the other end.

   Well I guess that is how it's gonna be from now on.
  I got up and went back to my room.
  I'm not really sure what to do at this point.
  I'm pretty sure no one wants me here anymore.

  No one wants me here.

The thought made me want to cry myself to death.
  I knew what I had to do.
I keep hurting them and myself.

  So I need to do the right thing and leave.
  I have to go back "home"
  Back to the beatings and always being drained to do anything.
  I don't turn eighteen until 4 months from now.
  All I have to do is put up with it for 4 months.
  I took my time packing. I honestly wasn't ready to leave.
   These boys have made my life better and worse all at the same time.

  But they didn't deserve this. They didn't deserve being heartbroken or comforting their best friend every 5 minutes.

   I grabbed my suitcases and wrote and long letter.

  This is it. I'm tired of crying and hurting people.

  I don't deserve them.

  Author note:

  WE ARE SO CLOSE TO THE END!!!!!! 😁 I know I've already said this like a million times but thank you guys for the support 💜💙

  ~shannon🚀🎈