Soldier

Chapter 32: Jace

I have been quite busy the past few days. What with all the scavenging I have done. Out in the snow at that. We did land on a beach somewhere, with nothing after all, which was completely covered with snow, a few days ago. It was just me, Evangeline, and a driver from the Lander. The driver isn't all too bad either. He is a few years older than me. Said he was some other person's partner or something. That they were separated after they were assigned their boats. Ah, well, guess it doesn't matter now. They're separated, and there's nothing he can do about it.

The three of us have really just, survived on the side of the beach up till now. Glad that the driver brought some supplies with him. But my world won't come at this rate... I have to get going. Maybe then I can find out what's going on. Hopefully, I can meet the mystery figure from the monitor to that robot I killed, and buried. Hmph! I need answers. Just one problem stands in my way. Convincing that driver to come with me; which can be a large problem. Evangeline should be easy. She is after all, mine, whether she knows it or not, especially after a few days ago after I made her mine on the lander the day after we landed. I loved her, and she loved me all night long.

I yawned as I stretched my arms. I sat on top of a log that sits just above the beach where we landed. I like sitting here. It gives me a sense of, superiority. I watched as Evangeline sat next to the fire. She held onto her knees as she stared at it burn. Guess it's somewhat my fault she doesn't look so happy.

It will change in time though. She'll come around. Besides, I will watch over her until the day she dies, and she will always be my partner. She should be grateful! She always seems to crave spending time with me though...

The driver, I never asked for his name, (Doesn't matter.) walked back and forth inside and out of the Lander. He probably has something on his mind. Perfect. Now would be the right time to get him to start moving. If I am right, we should be there by noon. Those damn officials. They thought they wouldn't be found out. Wasn't a bad plan either. But it can just as easily fall through the cracks as the rest of it has. My plan is perfect. All I need to do now is finish it.

Sad the information had to come the way it did. We weren't the only ones that landed on the beach. In fact, another Lander had landed two days ago. Only three people were onboard. One of my old teachers was one of them. Ah, Sensei, he was gone to soon. Well, not naturally of course.

I was out looking for some fire wood one night, when I stumbled onto that beach. Not more than a few yards away from where we landed. It was dark at first, until Sensei turned on a flashlight. There wasn't a driver onboard. At least, a live one. I could see his body lying there on the boat. I always knew that Sensei was more than a teacher. But he probably wasn't expecting one of his students to do him in.

I did after all, kill the other two that were next to Sensei. I just pulled out my pistol and shot them in a flash. I really didn't think about it much. They were only two people. Besides. It was worth it to see Sensei bolt into the forest as soon as his comrades dropped dead. It really took no time at all for me to find him either.

Sensei ran into a clearing in the forest, pistol in hand. The night was cold. The moon made everything a bluish color. The wind blew the tall grass back and forth as Sensei stood tall in the field. That is when I, showed myself. My gun up and ready as I had pointed it at Sensei. I still remember it. The look on Sensei's face when he saw me. Sensei wasn't scared. No, he was disappointed. He yelled at me 'What the hell are you doing?! Where are the others?' Before he put a hand on his face and laughed, 'So, you were a sleeper-no, an alchemist from the start! Well look at you! You could have been a fine soldier. Such a waste of talent. But I suppose you don't want to talk to me, right? Well pull the trigger then! I am no pushover, Jace. Unlike you, I am a loyal soldier. Let's see if you've learned anything!' word for word. With such confidence, Sensei was sure he would win. It really got my blood pumping. But I didn't think fighting fair was nice. I was more interested in finding out what Sensei was doing. So, I just shot him in the leg. Then the other one. Sensei had fallen on his back by then, out of surprise and dropped his weapon. His gun was only a few inches from him. So I shot his hands too. I remember I walked over and had stood right over him. I remember everything I learned about one class period that instant. So I cocked the pistol and told him, "Let's talk." Before I installed fear in Sensei, as I mentioned the words "Lesson 29, section 42 of the soldiers command book; Understanding and keeping your mouth shut during torture. Let's see how you handle it."

I probably won't forget the screams. I did torture him all night long, with everything that I learned. Until Sensei finally cracked and told me everything I needed to know, because everyone has their breaking point. No matter how strong they may think they are. A human soul and mind will always break, if their bodies don't give out on them first. And besides, I didn't leave him there to die... that would have been cruel. I shot him between the eyes after he spilled everything he knew.

So, as it turns out, the government had no intention of any of the soldiers living, nor did they truly care. Sensei was supposed to come investigate a strange facility somewhere in the area they were. Though, there were more vile secrets he uncovered. I would rather not think about them. All I can think about now is how that teacher I had despised for a long time, rather in secret, met his "untimely" end.

Why I did something so... so horrible? I guess it's because I have a world to make. I won't have to be alone anymore, I won't be the outcast. Everyone will live happier. People won't grow corrupt anymore. There won't be such a thing as sin. For the sin that burdens my heart won't go away and it won't stop hurting! If I make my world, sin will be forgotten. The world will change. It has to. Or else I will have done so much wrong for nothing... Grahhhh!!!! I can't take it anymore! Why can't I be happy like everyone around me... why? Why!!!?