Soldier

Chapter 43: Kairi

The 'camp' is actually pretty nice. Though there are only the two houses. The one on top of the hill is larger and is built into the hill itself. It has a red tin roof, stone walls and a beautiful inside. At least more comfortable than other places I've been in recently. There are only about four rooms, so most of the others slept outside in tents. There is a living room, a kitchen, a dining room, and a bathroom, other than the bedrooms. There is a downstairs too, but I would rather not go down there. Large windows are on the living room wall, facing the house under it. Two glass odors on the side leading to an unfinished porch. Loose boards and a few pieces of plywood just tossed together. And as for furniture, there are only beds, a fridge, and tables, with one single bookshelf with old, old war books lining the shelves, in the corner of the dining room.

I did see that there is a shack outside too, just above the wall which separates the hill from the road. Though I can tell it is a tad unsafe. The shack creaks and sways with every little gust of wind. But still, some students go in to take things in and out of it.

I am just glad that right now I am in a room, on a nice warm bed. I was especially thankful for my new change of clothes. A white t-shirt, a camo skirt from one of the other academy girls, and a pair of ankle high brown boot like shoes. I'm not going to complain about any mismatches or whatever. I'm just glad I actually got new clothing. But, I couldn't force myself to throw away Alex's jacket. It's just lying on the floor. It makes me feel safer. It's like a part of Alex is with me, even when he's not. I shouldn't say that though, I shouldn't say...

Two thoughts arose inside of my head. I remembered something the man had said. That I have the blood of death in me, the blood of darkness. What did that mean? Every time I think about it. My heart feels like an empty void. Like I'm a hollow shell. Yet I feel strangely more connected to Alex, and my heart starts beating again. A bunch of things that I feel just seem to get worse. My emotions get out of control. It scares me. When the man said that, I felt all of that at once.

I shook my head, grabbed the pillow next to me and hugged it. I tried to get those thoughts out of her head. Something keeps bothering me though. It won't go away. It's like a small memory is trying to break out of a cage in the confines of my heart. I can feel my chest ache with that feeling.

I remembered something. I can see a man's face in front of me. I reached out my hands to grab him, but I can't reach. He had shining blue eyes and short, dark black hair. A smile on his face as he stared down at me. He was wearing some sort of brown cloak. Over a military uniform. I could feel that someone was holding me. I looked around the room, when I saw a women's face. She had lit reddish-brown hair. Beautiful, gentle brown eyes stared at me. A loving smile on her face. She was wearing a white gown, like the ones patients in hospitals wear.

I could hear the woman laugh, the other person leaned over me and smiled. They tried saying something to me. But I can't hear them. The memory felt... happy. I can feel their smiles, their joy. The memory started to fade, as a knocking sound coming from somewhere...

I realized I was dreaming and woke up.

To my surprise I whispered,

"Mom..." without telling myself to say that. I sat up on the bed. Who was that person? Why did I just say mom? Wait... the person in my dream was wearing a gown from a hospital. Could that mean...?

I turned towards the door as I heard it open. Alex stepped into the doorway, with an entirely new uniform and a hand over his head. He put it down and said,

"Kairi I- I'm sorry! I didn't think of how you felt. I just wanted to say I'm sorry Kairi. I just don't want you to leave me! That's all..."

Alex turned back around and tried walking out the door. I slid off the bed and ran to him. I caught his hand in mine and squeezed it tight. Alex stopped in front of me. What am I doing... I need to apologize. But then he was the one to say he was sorry. I-I...

"I-I'm the ones whose sorry. Alex. A lot of people have died and I didn't think how you felt!"

My heart beat faster and faster. I can feel it throughout my entire body.

Alex turned around and smiled as he hugged me around my waist.

"I guess both of us are just alike, aren't we? Your cute, you know that?" My cheeks reddened on their own and I can feel myself start blushing. I laid my head onto his chest.

"I-I guess you right."

I kissed him on the cheek. Alex pulled back slightly as he started blushing too. Cute.

I felt his hands tighten around me. Before I knew it, he kissed me. We both stared at each other. It felt nice. Considering-

Alex kissed me again. I held onto him as I pulled my hands over his shoulders. I seemed to forget everything. Oh well. It will come back...