Soldier

Chapter 35: Alex

I've never felt so weak before. How am I ever going to protect anyone I love, if I can hardly protect myself? To be honest. I was scared. I was scared I would die. Kairi would die. My friends would die. No, I AM scared. I was so scared, I dropped the gun I had in my hands... when I heard something about my parents....

I can't go on pretending to be a hero anymore. What have I done to deserve that title? I guess... as long as Kairi is here with me, I'll be okay. As long as Kairi thinks I'm a hero that should be enough. But I still feel how weak I really am. I just try my best to keep those feeling locked away inside. My own guilt. I'm sorry...

It's not bad I guess. Things could be worse. At least Kairi and I are together. Even if it's in a cell; white walls, a white ceiling, and a bed, a light velvet blanket over it, so it stood out. That's all that's in here. I don't have anything with me, in terms of objects. Not like I owned anything. All I ever had were my friends... and Kairi.

I'm worried about Kairi though. I have to talk to her. But I feel that I got her onto this. If it wasn't because of me, she'd be-no. It may seem selfish. But I'm glad Kairi came with me. She didn't have to. She was given the choice to stay back at the academy. But I wanted her here with me. I couldn't stand to be away from her. Hehe.

I am an idiot aren't I?

I looked at Kairi who is lying on the bed and faced the wall. While I sit here in the corner, in my own pity. I can't do that. The only reason I've ever gotten anywhere in life, is because there were people there to help me. My friends were by my side. Kairi was by my side. They still are by my side. Everyone, I care about are the ones I need to protect. I can't sit here and worry about my own problems. She is more important to me then myself... even if I have to die...

I pushed myself off the floor and walked over to the bed and sat down next to Kairi. I laid down behind her.

"Kairi?"

I waited for a few seconds for her to reply. She turned around.

"About time that you said something, Alex. I'm fine... how are you?" She smiled at me. Just like her to bring me up. When I thought everything was lost. She has a way to make me smile... but I know her smile isn't genuine...

"I'm okay. I guess. I learned..."

I stopped myself in my own sentence. Whether or not I can trust that man, I don't know. He calls himself an angel, and Kairi's uncle. But somewhere deep inside, I know that he wasn't lying. My parents were clones. Copies. But that doesn't mean they weren't people. Just like it means that I am my own person. No matter what anyone tells me. I have my ideals. I have memories that no one else will ever have. I have feelings only I will ever feel. But what that makes me, I don't know. Can I even call myself human?

I looked at Kairi as she stared at me, still smiling. Usually she would have asked me to finish my sentence. I think she knows though. She's still wearing my jacket. Her brown hair is fluffed and untidy. Her light brown eyes as beautiful as ever. I stared at her for a long time. She started to blush, puffing out her cheeks.

"S-Stop that..."

I smiled at her.

"So an Angel...?"

Kairi gave me her blank look. I don't think she wants to talk about that. I don't want to either. I just want to forget all of this already. I haven't had a chance to get quality, real time with Kairi. But first, we need to get out of here. Whatever that man is doing, it's wrong. I have to stop it....

I hugged Kairi. As I pulled her close to me. For a moment our eyes locked. Before I knew it, we kissed. Then again. I stopped before we went too far and sat up on the bed.

We looked at the door as we heard it click. Kairi sat up on the bed and we both waited for it to open. The door swung outward as someone stepped in.

He looks like a mad scientist, with a white mask over his mouth and nose, a white gown that stretched to the floor, black boots, and bluish rubber gloves. He grabbed a syringe from one of his pockets and took off his mask to reveal someone I thought I would never meet again in my life.

"Hello, again"

I remember... he was the one who stabbed me at the academy.

Thousands of thoughts ran across my mind. I still know how it feels. To have the life start flowing out of you. The hopelessness. I came so close to death one time already. Not this time. Not now. He is going to see what it feels like!

I squeezed my hands into fists. Ready for what I am going to do. Not much of a plan but well, I'll figure something out.

I tried to stand strait. But while I look at him, it feels like I'm dying all over again. That I never will wake up this time. It hurts. My chest. My heart. He almost killed me. Not this time... even if it means... if it means...