All I could do was cry(completed)

Chapter 11

BEY POV

When I woke up I had a major crook in my neck from laying on the couch all night.I picked my head up a little bit and I seen jewel was laid out on the floor with her face up under the couch.I felt something wet in my hair so I looked up and seen Jay was drooling on my head.I didn't really care about it that much but jewel was scaring me why was her was under the couch?I had to whisper to talk to her cause Jay was still sleeping.

Bey:"jewel why are you on the floor?"

She lifter her head up and hit it on the couch.

Jewel:"owwww how did I get down here?"

Bey:"where did you fall asleep last night?"

Jewel:"I could have sworn I fell asleep on top of you and daddy."

Bey:"you might have fallen off in the middle of the night."

Jewel:"yea but how did my head get under the couch?"

Bey:"idk but my neck hurts."

I laid back down on Jays chest as jewel continued to lay on the floor.As I was laying there I couldn't help but to think that someone else had been doing this with him for 3 years.someone had been enjoying what was supposed to be mine all these years.That realization made what we were doing seem wrong even though the my mind was telling me it was right my conciseness wasn't.I tried to get up but Jay had his arms wrapped around me like he never wanted to let go.I can't keep doing this with him because I will get broken every time.

Bey:"Jay let me go."

Jay:"no bey I'm not letting you go."

Bey:"please."

Jay:"why?"

Bey:"because I'm hungry and I'm sure jewel is too."

Jewel:"yes I am but if your cooking I'll just starve."

Bey:"o shut up jewel it's not that bad."

Jewel:"then how did you burn toast."

Bey:"I didn't burn it I just like it a little black."

I was totally lying that toast was Burt and tasted like I was eating a brick but Jay didn't need to know that.

Jewel:"ok mom whatever you say."

Bey:"now Jay can you let me go please."

Jay:"fine but you'll be back."

I hopped up from the couch as Jay continued to lay there I pulled jewel out from under the couch and ran upstairs to my room.I freshened up some then went into the kitchen to make some cereal.I was pouring my cereal when I felt two strong arms wrap around me again.

Bey:"Jay what are you doing?"

Jay:"I'm holding you."

Bey:"no Jay this is wrong you have a girl and a child just let me fix us some cereal so you can go back home with your family."

Jay:"what does that have to do with anything and I don't care that this is wrong."

Bey:"well I care because you will never be mine Jay you will always be hers she had your first child you will always be hers."

Jay:"well we have a child together whether she was adopted or not she is ours and I will always be yours I still love you."

Bey:"well you also still love Sanaa and blue so just sit down and eat breakfast with us and leave."

Jay:"seriously bey I came over to make this workout out I don't love Sanaa but I will always love blue."

Bey:"you can't love blue and not love Sanaa because blue is half of her soo..."

Jay:"I love you bey I love you and jewel please stop this playing hard to get mess and say you love me too."

Bey:"I'm not playing hard to get I'm tired I'm tired of all of this I'm tired of being broken-hearted and I can't do this I just can't I the reason I can't is because I still have love for you but you love Sanaa so just lets have a semi-peaceful breakfast with jewel and then you can leave."

Jay:"fine bey I will be back and trust me your gonna change your mind."

I ignored his last comment and continued making his bowl of cereal.Jewel came down the stairs and sat at the table waiting for her food.I handed her bowl and called Jay to come eat his.I sat on the island in the kitchen eating mine.

Jewel:mommy can you me and daddy hang out today?"

Bey:"No not to....(gco)"

Jay:"sure princess where do you wanna go?"

I looked at Jay side ways is he going deaf?

Bey:"Jay 1 I already told you what the deal is and 2 last time I checked you weren't her mommy you were barley even her daddy."

Jay turned around quick as hell when I said that.

Jay:"what do you mean I was there the whole time up until someone decided to move to California."

Bey:"after someone went and got another women pregnant."

Jay:"she is still my daughter and it wasn't my fault you took her away from me."

Bey:"she is your daughter because of these damn adoption papers but other than that you know nothing about her."

Jewel dropped her spoon on the table.

Jewel:"got someone pregnant?"

Jewel probably needed some time to process what I had said  though she was just realizing what I had said I wanted Jay to tell her what happened.

Bey:"Jay gon head tell her."

Jay:"well when you were younger I cheated on mommy and got another girl pregnant so that's why you and mommy left me in New York."

Jewel:"you did what to my mother o no you gonna have to get up out of here I love you and all but that's wrong daddy."

Jay:"I know princess that's why I'm trying to make it right."

While Jay was talking to jewel I noticed his phone on the counter lighting up.I leaned over on the island to see who it was and if it wasn't the devil her self.

Bey:"Jay I think yo girl calling."

Jay:"I'll call her later."

I continued eating my cereal and made a mental note to self to talk to Sanaa later on.I don't know how much talking there is gonna be cause you can't talk yo way out of stealing another women's man and getting pregnant by him.