All I could do was cry(completed)

Chapter 37.5

Jay POV

I was at home with 3 kids and I was losing my mind blue wouldn't leave me alone and the twins kept arguing about toys and then I calmed them down with the word food and then that only made things worse cause they couldn't make up their mind.There are Cheerios all over the floor they got some washable paint from some where and that all over the carpet and if that wasn't enough Beyoncé was out doing god knows what who God knows who I can't do this I can't even focus on my thoughts right now I don't know how she does this still finds time to take care of my needs and write her book and this is just during the week with 3 kids I know jewel would be going to a soccer game this weekend if she were here bey would have to deal with her attitude.

Blue:"daddy?"

Jay:"not now blue."

Blue:"but da..(gco)"

Jay:"I said not now blue now go play with your brother and sister I'm busy."

I was trying to pick up and clean up the mess they made when I smelled something burning.I walked into the kitchen and if the food I tried to fix wasn't on fire great just my damn luck.My first reaction was to put the fire out and since it was a small fire I grabbed a towel and tried to pat it out.That didn't work it just caught the towel on fire and the fire expand.I have to get the kids out of here.I ran to get them and put them in the car I went back in and grabbed my phone by now the smell of smoke was very clear and very strong I grabbed my phone and called 911 my next call was bey.i got in the car and started driving when I called her.

Jay:"come on come on pick up the phone now is not the time."

Bey:"what Shawn?"

Jay:"look I know your mad at me but there has been an incident."

Bey:"what!.........Kelly I'm going to go take this in the bathroom."

Kelly:"no bey stay your supposed to be out you don't need him right now."

Bey:"I'll be back damn........now what is going on Jay?"

Jay:"well the house is kind of in fire."

Bey:"NIGGA I KNOW YOU DID NOT JUST SAY MY HOUSE WSS ON FUCKING FIRE!"

Jay:"I'm sorry I was trying to clean up after the kids and I had started dinner and then I forgot about it I'm extremely sorry."

Bey:"damn it I knew I shouldn't have left you at home but if your sorry now wait until I get there bye."

Awwww shit I'm screwed as hell.

Blue:"where we going daddy?"

Jay:"we're going to go get mommy were you trying to tell me that the food was burning earlier?"

Blue:"yea."

Jay:"I'm so sorry I wasn't paying attention."

We pulled into the club and bey was standing outside impatiently tapping her foot.She got in the car and started hitting and yelling at me.I got out the car and went to open her door so she could get out.

Bey:"I hate you first you leave me at home all the time with 4 kids and then the one time I leave you at home with 3 of them you go and burn shit down."

Jay:"I'm sorry it's just my father is stuck in my head."

Bey:"what do you mean?"

Jay:"I've been so distant and gone all the time because I've been hanging with him I figured I needed to give him a chance and now I'm confused he's telling me things I didn't know and things that are going to happen to me and if I'm not at home you can't leave me."

Bey:"Jay baby you sound dumb as fuck right now I would have even more reason to leave you if you aren't at home because that leaves me to suspect things and if I was going to leave I would have left by nowAnother thing is why didn't you tell me this stuff before now because my house wouldn't be on fire.Why did you feel it was ok to hide This from me you know I'm ride or die I would have went with you or I would have let you talk to me once the kids were sleep?"

Jay:"because this is the one part of my past I don't want you involved in Ive told you everything about my past except this part and I haven't told another soul I wouldn't have even told God if he didn't already know I don't want anyone I love involved in this part of my past."

Bey:"why is it really that bad?"

Jay:"yes I will tell you when I feel the time is right but right now we need some where to go while the fire department puts out the fire."

Kelly:"Beyoncé Giselle knowles I know you not standing out here talking to Shawn because if you are in about to whoop both of talks asses."

Nicki:"girl you need she can't stay away from zaddy zick."

Bey:"I don't know we have run out of options."

Jay:"we can stay at nick is house?"

Bey:"nick nick can we stay at your house?"

Nicki:"for how long?"

Bey:"until our house gets fixed."

Kelly:"the hell wrong with your house?"

Bey:"it's kinda on fire right now."

She side eyes the hell out of me I felt that shit in my soul.

Nicki:"yea only cause I want to spend some time with nieces and nephews but I don't want no more being made in my home even though I want more."

Bey:"Nicki this factory is closed so that won't be happening anytime soon."

We got the key to her house and went back to Mickie house I told bey she could stay but she said only for me to burn down nick is house too no.So we are on our way to nicks house.We got there and we meek was in the couch in his boxers watching football.I went to put the kids upstairs and got them bathed and everything.I went back downstairs and watched the game with meek when I noticed bey was missing.

Jay:"yo where is bey?"