All I could do was cry(completed)

Chapter 11.5

Since Jay wasn't going to answer the phone I decided I would.

Bey:"hey Sanaa girl what's up?"

Sanaa:"who is this?"

Bey:"you know who it is its beyonce."

Sanaa:"why are you answering his phone where is he and why is he with you?"

Bey:"slow down child are you the police damn and I don't know he came over here and I answered because he wasn't going to soooo how you doing?"

Sanaa:"I'm fine."

I could hear she had an attitude and I wasn't having that.

Bey:"um nope you have no reason to have an attitude with me take that up with Jay and you know I can't stand your ass but I need to talk to you just me and you."

Sanaa:"ok well then speak."

Who does this girl think she is takes my LIFE and then talks to me sideways?Wait tip I see her.

Bey:"hahaha Gurlll whew you are funny I'm not talking to you in the phone I wanna see you square on."

After I said that the line went silent.I knew she was still there cause I heard the background noise and her breathing.

Bey:"Outback Steakhouse 6:00 Tomorrow be there."

After I said that I didn't need to hear her response so I hung up.When I looked up I seen Jay looking at me.

Bey:"can I help you?"

Jay:"why did you answer my phone?"

Bey:"why did you cheat on me?"

Jay:"answer my question beyonce."

Bey:"no you answer mine."

Jay:"not all questions can be answered now answer my question."

Bey:"not all questions can be answered."

I said as I looked back down at my now very soggy cereal.

Jay:"beyonce you know what never mind."

I never looked up to see him.

Jewel:"momma?"

Bey:"yes baby?"

Jewel:"can I stay with daddy?"

I can't say I wasn't a little hurt by the fact that she didn't want to stay with me tonight but who am I kidding she hasn't see him in 3 years I'll let them have their time.

Jewel:"please momma?"

I looked up at her and Jay was looking at me waiting for an answer when I seen jewel wink at me.I knew that wink all too well that meant she was up to something and since she was mad at her father I knew it had something to do with him and I didn't really care.

Bey:"sure go get cleaned up and pack your duffle bag."

Jewel:"yes mommy thank you so much."

Omg this girl is not only a good actor but an even better lier that's gonna cause me some problems later on.I wasn't in the mood to speak with Jay so I got up and picked up jewels bowl and took it to the sink.I came back and grabbed my bowl.

Jay:"so your just gonna ignore me now?"

I didn't respond

Jay:"BEYONCE!!!"

Bey:"one don't yell my name like that and two this is my house so don't yell period in it and what the hell do you want?"

Jay:"why are you acting like some selfish bitter bitch?"

What did he just say is he crazy does he not know that I have a crazy ass sister.Nah he must have forgotten who he was talking to cause he know he cared of solo.

Bey:"tuh your real funny I knew all of this was gonna end real quick."

Jay:"what are you talking about bey?"

Bey:"I am talking about this o beyonce I'm sorry and I still love I knew it was gonna end."

Jay:"it hasn't I do still love you."

Bey:"don't play that bull shit with me if you loved me you wouldn't have called me a selfish bitter bitch Jay."

Jay:"I'm sorry I am just upset because your not trying to fight for what we had 3 years ago."

Bey:"good I want you to fell how I felt I was fighting for the us I wanted and you were fighting for yourself.Im tired of fighting I'm tired of the lies and the games and I'm tired of YOU."

Jay:"beyonce you don't mean that it's still me Jay Jay from 3 years ago."

Bey:"well if that's the Jay you are I don't want you cause the Jay 3 years ago cheated on me twice and got the girl pregnant.I can understand if it was some stranger but no that was my Bestfriend.And the saddest part about it is I was the one that introduced you two and we would all go out and you were seeing her on the low man I feel like such an idiot."

Jay:"bey I'm so so...(gco)"

Bey:"save it Jay cause if I hear one more I'm sorry from you your gonna be very sorry."

He stopped talking and walked into the living room.I seen jewel come from upstairs and give Jay her bag and he took it to the car.Jewel came back and told me she loved me and left with Jay.I walked o the door and waved them off as jewel turned around in the backseat and made a heart with her hands.I smiled and made one back.I stayed there until the car was o my a little dot in the distance I then walked back into my now empty house.I walked up to my bedroom and laid there in the dark thinking about the past.

Flashback

It was Christmas and I decided to have a Christmas party with all my family and friends.I was so happy that Sanaa was in town because she had recently been in Australia shooting a movie or something so I was glad she could be here for the party.

Bey:"SANAAAAAAA!!!!!"

Sanaa:"BEYYYYYYYY!!!"

Bey:"omg girl I got someone I want you to meet come on."

I dragged Sanaa through the house and into the kitchen where Jay was.

Bey:"Sanaa this is my boyfriend Jay and Jay this is Sanaa."

I seen the way Sanaa way eyeing Jay but I thought she was checking him out to make sure he was good for me I should have known better

Flashback over

I got up from the bed and walked into the bathroom.I went into one of my drawers and found my straight edge razors.I began slicing at my wrist slowly easing the pain I was feeling internally.After I felt like I had real eased enough stress I left the bathroom and laid down in my bed hopefully getting some sleep tonight.