Your Nickle Ain't Worth My Dime (A Sleeping with Sirens fan fiction)

Tomorrow Will Be Kinder

*Jeydon's POV*

"And I have an eating disorder," Mariah said, taking a shaky breath.

I couldn't help but smile at her. I didn't want to admit it at first, but now that she had, we could get her help. "Next, we get rid of what makes you feel like you have to starve yourself. So, we can start with a big mushy speech from me." I flashed her a full tooth smile and sat on the doctor's stool next to the bed. It took, honestly, everything I had in me not to roll around the room on that thing. This was a time to be serious. "Mariah, you're beautiful in every meaning of the word, and I'm not just saying that because you're my best friend. Honestly, you shouldn't change yourself for society's ridiculous and degrading views of the way that they think women should be. I want to always see you being wonderfully happy and very much alive. I don't want to see you broken or self-conscious or hurting yourself. Okay? You've got a bunch of people who feel the exact same way that I do. Jamie loves you. Damon loves you. Your parents love you. Your subscribers love you. I love you, Mya. Got it?"

She was looking down at her hands, biting her lip and blushing. That must've been a damn good speech, but I wanted to be sure that I had gotten through to her so I needed her to look at me. I grabbed her chin and tilted it up so her eyes met mine. "Got it?" I said again.

She nodded. "Got it."

"Good," I nodded. "Next phase in this step, we go home and turn around all the full body mirrors and we take care of the person who you're doing this for..."

She paled. "I'm not-"

"Don't lie to me right now, Blondie," I warned. "You just told me that everything I had asked you about was true. If he makes you feel that way, then he's not good for you to be around."

She shook her head. "I don't want to 'take care of him, Jey. That wouldn't just make it all go away."

"But it could help," I insisted. She opened her mouth to argue, but I wasn't going to let her. "No, I am not just saying this because I'm jealous. You don't have to stop eating for anybody, especially a guy."

"It's not just him, Jeydon!" she exclaimed, seeming to scare herself with her sudden outburst. I raised my eyebrows and motioned for her to continue. "There are people I'm around probably 90% of my time who make me feel this way."

"Like who?" I asked. "Me?"

"That's not important, Jey. What I was trying to get at was, getting rid of Kellin, who I just happen to really like, isn't going to make me feel better."

"It's important to me. Is it me?" I pushed. I didn't want it to be me, but she said that it was people that she spent most of her time with. I was one of those people.

"Not only..." she said quietly.

"Mariah! Why wouldn't you say something?! I don't want you to feel like that! What did I do? How-?"

"Jey!" she interrupted. "Calm down! It's more me than you, so calm down!"

I forced myself to calm down. "I can stop everything I do that causes you to feel insecure, but you've been with Kellin for a few months, and that's just about all he's done."

"But-"

"No 'but's. He hasn't told his friends about you and he won't even let you see his daughter! That doesn't sound like it boosts your self-confidence."

There was a knock at the door and Damon and Jamie were yelling for us to open the door. I gave in, not wanting to fight with Mariah anymore, and opened the door.

**

Three days later and Sleeping With Sirens had to go back to being rock stars, which was completely fine with me. I had, with my usual perfect timing (please note my sarcasm), walked into a room and seen Kellin and Mariah cuddling or kissing or being a couple like. Whenever we were all together, he would barely act like he knew her. She would act like she was brushing it off, but I could tell that it hurt her. She wouldn't eat as much as she should at dinner when that happened, and it worried me. He might not be the only reason, but he was the biggest reason. I was more than done with all of this, so now was the time when I did what I could to help my best friend.