Silver (A Ninjago Maximum Ride Crossover)

Chapter 36: My Baby Boy

'Silver's POV'

I step into the machine, ready to get back to my old self.

"Silver, you will feel a slight pressure in three... Two... One..." I feel my body form into my old one "and we are done-" As I step out of the machine, it blows up, sending me flying into the wall

"Silver!" The others were far enough away that the impact only made them take a step back, or fall down.

I cough. Cole helps me stand up, I feel pain in my shoulder, where I came into contact with the wall

"Silver, I am so very sorry! The machine overheated and-" I cut the panicking Pixal off

"Pixal, it's fine, I've had worse." I try to make my voice sound light, but it comes out sounding weak

"I am still terribly sorry." She hangs her head

"I am sorry as well, Silver. I thought the machine was ready..." Both Mr. Borg and Pixal hang their heads

"It's okay, really." They lift their heads again

"I will need to meet with Wu to talk about preparations and strategies for the this upcoming war."

We get his phone number and head back to the hideout.

~~~

"I will call him now." My father walks back into the security room. We were with Mr. Borg for the rest of the day, then we are dinner, and now it's time for bed.

"Mommy, will you stay here tomorrow?" Kadence asks, looking up at me

"I don't know, Kadence." If Mr. Borg wants me to go with my father, I'll have to go.

"Okay." He looks down sadly. I take his hand and lead him away from the crowd, he seems confused, and still sad

"Kadence, I know this is hard for you right now, but after this is all over, after we've won the war, it's all going to change." He was born in the middle of all of this, he's never experienced what being 'normal' feels like

"It will?" His eyes hold the light of hope, the light my eyes lost a long time ago

"Yes, it will." He hugs me

"I can't wait until this is all over..." He whispers. It's got to be so awful for him. I know he's not stupid, he knows I could die, I might not make it through this, he knows that.

I set him in our sleeping bag, then sneak outside and sit in a tree.

Kadence has had a hard life this far. I really hope that after all of this is over I can give him a good life, one better than this one has ever been...

Am I being a good mother? This question haunts my thoughts. I try so hard to push it to the back of my mind, but it screams at me, demanding to be heard and acknowledged.

What if I'm not? What if he ends up hating me?

What if... I die... And leave him all alone in this cruel world?

"Silver, you aren't supposed to be out here." I hear Cole's voice from beside me and turn my head towards him

"I know... I just need somewhere quiet to think..." His gaze is soft, loving

"Silver, don't worry-" I cut him off

"You can't tell me that! You aren't a mutation that's had to fight for her life! You don't have a son that's going to be all alone if you die! You haven't been through what I have, Cole..." I did it again, I yelled and pushed him, the person who loves me, away from me

"Silver, we've been over this; I know I haven't been through what you have. But I'm here for you now, we all are. And Kadence is going to be fine, you aren't going to die, you aren't going to leave him alone."

"Come on Cole, I know you're smarter than that. You know that they could easily kill me." He sighs and looks down

"I'm just trying to be helpful..." I lean over and kiss his cheek

"Thank you, that's really sweet." I smile at him, he smiles back, taking my hand in his.

He places his other hand on my cheek, reconnecting our lips. He moves his hand to intertwine our fingers. I don't know what to do, so I let him take the lead.

He pulls his mouth away from mine and places tender kisses over my jaw, down my neck and to my collarbone. It's like he's searching for something- I gasp and feel him smirk against my skin. He begins to suck and bite the spot that made me gasp. He must be trying to leave a mark like the ones I've seen on Lilian's neck after she and Kai come back from a date.

He pulls his mouth from my collarbone, I assume he's happy with the mark he's left. I suddenly feel very self-conscious as he looks at me with his loving, dark brown eyes. I look down, feeling my cheeks get hot

"What's wrong?" He asks

"You were staring at me..." He puts his fingers under my chin, forcing me to look into his eyes

"Of course I was, you're beautiful, Silver." He gives my hand a reassuring squeeze. I can't bring myself to break our gaze, so he does it for me by pressing his lips back against mine.

~~~

I walk back into the hideout, still holding Cole's hand. Kadence is awake, sitting on my sleeping bag

"Mommy!" His ears perk up and he smiles toothily. I walk over to the sleeping bag

"Kadence, what are you doing still up?" He looks down

"I couldn't get to sleep without you." That's right, he's been having trouble sleeping

"Well I'm here now. C'mon, lets go to sleep." I turn back to Cole "goodnight." He kisses my forehead

"Goodnight." He lets my hand go and makes his way to his own sleeping bag. I crawl into the sleeping bag with Kadence, wrapping my arms around his small body

"Goodnight mommy, I love you." He yawns and cuddles into my chest

"Goodnight Kadence, I love you too."

My baby boy, my son, the one I'd give my life for... I love you so much...