I woke up & saw Demi standing by the bed, pulling her pants on & I smiled at the sight, since it reminded me of the night before, when we made love. I sat up on my elbow & smiled at her, even though she wasn't aware I was awake yet. "Damn... you're dressed already." I said, my voice gruff.
She looked alarmed when she looked at me, then she gave me a weird smile. "Yea, I've been up for a little while."
"You don't have to get dressed, ya know?"
"Yea, I do." She replied simply, buttoning her pants.
"You got somewhere to be?"
Her eyes met mine & she inhaled, slightly, then her shoulders collapsed. "Joe's coming over in a bit so we can talk."
I saw up straighter, getting angry again & seeing her eye was a reminder of why I was angry. "For what? So you can tell him to never talk to you again? Then... you can get undressed & get back in bed with me?" I lifted my eyebrows, but she frowned & I felt my heart sink.
"Nick... about... last night...this... " Her hand waved between us & sighed as her eyes looked up for a moment, before she looked back at me. "What happened last night can't ever happen again."
"Why?"
"Because I don't have those kinds of feelings for you. I was drunk & I guess tequila makes me horny. I mean you're a really good kisser, so I just got extremely turned on. It will not happen again." Demi said in a soft voice, but it didn't help to soften the blow to my ego or my heart.
I swallowed & glanced away, not wanting to look at her face or I was afraid I'd burst into tears. "So it was a mistake?" My voice shook, even though I tried to control it.
Demi shook her head & sat on the bed. "No, I would never call it a mistake, Nick. I knew what I was doing, even though I was drunk. It's just... it can't ever happen again because I don't see a future, like that, with us. I wouldn't ever want to ruin our friendship by pursuing something that I don't feel would ever happen."
"Even though we both enjoyed ourselves last night & clearly both wanted that to happen... you don't think there is something there? Something worth pursuing?" I asked, watching her face, closely.
She shook her head, frowning. "No, I'm sorry. I was just really turned on... I mean Jesus, Nick, you're a good kisser, but it was purely physical. There's nothing else there for me. I'm not willing to risk our friendship, our close relationship for some good sex."
I sucked in my bottom lip & glanced down. "I get it."
"I don't want this to ruin our friendship or make things awkward between us. Can we just forget it happened? I know I can. Can you do that? Can you forget it happened?"
I nodded, knowing damn well I wasn't going to be able to actually forget that happened. I wasn't sure that our friendship was going to remain the same or that things wouldn't be awkward, but I'd do my best. "Nothing happened. We got drunk & went to bed." I looked into her eyes when I said the 'went to bed' part & she looked down, quickly.
"And can you please not tell Joe? Or anyone else for that matter?"
I sighed, deeply, feeling my insides twisting up, hearing Joe's name. "I won't tell Joe."
"Thank you." Demi stood up. "I'm going to go take a shower, since Joe will be here soon."
Demi & I stared at each other, for a moment & when I didn't say anything, she turned & left the room. The second I heard the bathroom door close, I hit the bed with my fist, then took several deep breaths. I was trying to keep my emotions in check, because I was feeling so many different ones. I sat there composing myself for a moment, then got up & pulled on shorts & a tank top. I headed out to the kitchen & just after I turned on the coffee maker, there was a knock on the back door. I opened it & had to count to ten in my head when I saw Joe standing there. He didn't wait for me to invite him in, he just sauntered in past me.
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Dear Nick
FanfictionNick Jonas and Demi Lovato have known each other since they were six years old, having grown up next door to each other their entire lives. They were best friends from the start and were there for each other through everything from breakups to death...