In the end

Christmas

I woke up in pure enjoyment, Today is Christmas Eve! I'm 18 so I've grown out of the whole Santa thing, which was the best part but I get to restart that because it's Ryder's first Christmas! I wrapped all of the presents I bought Ryder and Josh and put them under the tree. I took a shower than got changed in a red crop top and put on black high waisted jeans. I straightened my hair and put a Santa hat on, I look so cute. It's 11am right now so I decided to wake up Josh so we can go pick up Ryder from my moms since she wanted to have him last night. Once Josh was ready we went to lunch.

"It's so nice having some free space!" I said sipping my drink.

"For real babe, I miss our time."

"Yeah.. I just want to get like a 2 week vacation with you." I mumbled while bitting my lip.

"Mmh same.. It'd be so much fun!"

After lunch we picked up Ryder and went to Josh's aunt Kim's house. All of Josh's family was and it was a lot of fun seeing them again. Everyone of course wanted to see Ryder so he was being tossed around like football. I hung out with Josh's cousins Mande, Lexi, and Seri. They all are 18 too so we can relate to a lot of stuff.

"So today Rodney firkin asked me to come over so he can give me my present and all it was, was getting fingered!" Mande gossiped rolling her eyes.

"Ugh you need someone better, I can get that on a daily basis!" Seri spoke.

"For real Justin took me out on a nice romantic dinner and got me a diamond necklace before he got any holiday action." Lexi chuckled.

"Lucky, what about you Amanda did you get any gifts yet or holiday action?" Mande asked.

"No were going to open our presents tomorrow with Ryder since we live together."

"What about the action?" Seri asked.

"Oh, well not yet I mean last doesn't night count cause it was the holidays and we had a babysitter"

"Oo Fun! Glad my cousin is getting some" Lexi giggled.

Oh god this shits awkward I'm going to go find my son. I walked away in search of my baby. I saw Josh's uncle Kenny holding him while his wife looked at them in awe.

"Hey, I've been looking for him, has he been good!"

"Yeah he's so good! He's such a cutie." Kenny replied.

"Yeah Amanda he's adorable you guys make such cute babies!!" Keira gushed.

"Thank you! Do you guys plan on having any kids?"

"Oh well, we really really want kids but It's nearly impossible for me. I have a problem with my uterus and it's unfixable. I actually got pregnant 2 years ago and I never been so excited before than I woke up one night in a puddle of blood, I lost the baby. I got checked out they said the baby was stuck in my tube not in my uterus and it was this huge process to find out if I could carry more children and I can't. Even if the possiblitly breaks through the baby would end up getting birth defects and living it's life with major health problems." Keira frowned.

Oh fuck I feel terrible. "Oh I'm so sorry to hear about that. You guys should defiantly think about adoption my aunt actually couldn't have children so she decided to adopt and she's gotten 3 beautiful amazing children that are really happy. They get put in to such a great situation than what they were being brought up, so I think it might be good for you guys, or it might not."

"Yeah, we would love too!"

After I finished the chat with them I took Ryder from them and headed up to his aunts bedroom which she said I could use to feed Ryder and out him down for a nap. Josh came with me too so he's feeding him while I'm playing with his hair.