In the end

We need to talk

I'm so depressed. I don't want to go to practice today so I'm not. This is so upsetting. I went in twitter and I saw Josh posted something so I looked at it. Oh god. It's a picture with him and this girl. He's kissing her in the cheek! What the fuck is this.

'Im so glad Your back Kyndal, I've missed you like crazy💕'

My heart stopped. Who is this. It's not even like she's ugly. She's pretty. He's probably having sex with her as we speak I can't take it, I can't believe he just threw me away like this. I clicked on her profile and I saw a transformation pic, it was of them kissing on the lips, and than now. He dated her. What! Oh my god! No No No this can't be happening it just can't.

I began crying again. I have to see him we really need to talk.

--text--
'Josh can we meet up we need to talk!'

'Im busy right now Amanda'

'Fuck your old girlfriend. And worry about your new one!!'

'Thats exactly what I'm doing.'

My heart sank. I am his old girlfriend.. And I guess she's his new one. Oh my god! I can't do this. I need to see him right now.

I got up and ran downstairs and in to my car. I began driving over to Josh's house. I walked up to his front door and began knocking like crazy. The girl came to the door and her face was shocked.

"You shouldn't be here--"

"Shut the fuck where's josh" I said pushing threw her and walking in to the house.

I saw Josh standing there in his boxers and shirtless. No. His face went place, he looked sad kind of. Like I just walked in on him cheating. I guess I did.

"Really?" I said So upset.

"Amanda! Were not together anymore ok!"

"Did you like fucking her Josh!? Huh?" I asked. He was silent. "Did you whisper how much you loved her in her ear as you came? Huh? FUCKING ANSWER ME?" I screamed.

"It's none of your business Amanda it's not!"

"Ok, so it's none of your business either to ask me any questions about getting fingered last night, and giving someone a blow job!" I shouted.

"Are you fucking kidding me? How dare you--.. Hmm good one Amanda I'm not jealous ok I'm not, were done ok.. So continue to be a little whore fucking guys left and right at every party you go to, because I have an amazing Connection with Kyndal, and hey you know what we might heir date, and have more amazing sex, at least I know she isn't whoring around!"

"Fuck you ok, you can screw any girl in the universe, and I can't hook up with one person after we broke up because they did it.. They led me in to it hmm. And now I'm a whore, think again and look in the mirror. Right Kyndal I bet Josh pressured you in to hooking up as well, or others have, you know how it feels, when you go from just kissing someone to being led up the stairs, and began trapped under their bodies, you don't know how they might react to you saying 'no' so you do it.." I said.

"Yeah, I know what you mean josh for one won't do that, I bet you know that, but yes Josh it happens so She isn't a whore so don't call her that, because then I'm a whore to cause it's happened a few times" Kyndal replied.

Hmm looks like she's on my side.

"Ok whatever  sorry I called you a whore, but I'm over you"

"Joshua Baker, I came here to talk to you, because I did grow up and realize what you said to me so let's talk!" I said in a angry tone.

He shook his head still mad but giving in. "Fine let's talk, Kyndal will be back!"

We went outside and sat on his front stairs.

"So I just want to say, I'm sorry ok I'm so fucken Sorry, I love you Josh I love you so much and I've been so lost without you I just can't do this! I need you"

"Well you should've thought about it!" Josh said.

"What did I do wrong josh, if I kept texting you while I was driving I would've fucken crashed, and when I got the cafe I forgot to call you, I was so in to hanging out with my brother and then we went to his dorm and hung out with his friends I was occupied ok, I'm sorry I forgot to call, I was having a good time! And when you flipped on me for it and I couldn't take it cause I did nothing wrong like I can't ever just go out and have fun without you and without you complaining about something, so I said if this is how your going to act I don't want to be together! And that was true I was just telling you how I felt, and honestly Josh I can't be in a relationship like that. And that's where relationships are hard because you both have to work together and ease up on some things to make each other Happy and to stay together because you love eachother!" I said crying.

"Amanda I'm just sick of it ok"

"What do I do wrong you say I'm not ready to be a girlfriend when I am, I just forgot to answer you ok I'm sorry you knew I was ok by my snapchats so stop, don't you want your girlfriend To enjoy herself! So just stop being so clingy because you seem like your not ready to be a boyfriend, you don't know the measures of what you do as a boyfriend! But you know what I love you and I'd do anything for us to be together happily and you should feel the same way, so that's where we need to come and figure out how to get through it. Do you understand what I'm saying!" I said with all hope.

"I'm sorry, I guess I am a little to clingy, I know I need to work on that because if you were the same way I'd be annoyed to, I'm sorry for the whole phone call thing, I'm sorry it's just with my past relationships many of them cheated and I feel like you were going to! And I'm sorry I am I'm so sorry for blowing up like that, It was immature of me"

"It's ok, I love you josh and I want us to work things out! And what you just said makes me feel so much better you know! Like that's who I fell I love with! And I promise I won't cheat on you, I know you have those trust issues but please don't take them out on me, I'll let you know if I have a problem with you, or if I'm feeling like I don't like you anymore! I will baby I promise we have to get through it and we will!" I said smiling.

"Yeah, well in that being said like I feel terrible for hooking up with Kyndal, and I bet you feel the same way about what you did.. I just want that to be forgotten swept away because we fucked up we did it out of spite."

"Yeah I know" I said.

"Well with that being said, I'm sorry, I love you and will you be my girlfriend again?" He asked.

"Yes!" I said kissing and hugging him.

We went back in to his house and told Kyndal the news she was a little upset but hey he likes me more. Josh said he will still talk with her in a friendly way because they were really good friends and they broke up because they new being friends was a lot easier and better for them than a relationship.

After I hung out with josh for about a hour I decided to go home and shower, because I look like ass right now. On the way home I texted Devon telling him that Josh and I work everything out.