In the end

Last straw

Josh's POV
Things have been ok since we left Jamaica, but it's not great. Amanda and I were so bad the day we got back I actually thought I wanted to end our relationship. But after a few days of being back home, some space from each other and some amazing makeup sex were doing alright.

We're back at school and everyone knows that were engaged and they are making a big deal out of it. All I've been hearing this past week has been:
'Bro what a mistake..'
'You Guys are going to end up divorced'
'You're going to pay child support and alimony once you guys get divorced.'
'You're seriously asking for a disaster..'
'Your like 18 right?..'
'WHY?'
'Hey at least you get that pussy all the time though, your names signed to it'
'Is that a good idea?'
'When's your bachelor party'
'Bro you haven't even lived yet, why are you tying the knot?'
'Can I be in the wedding'
'Are you having more kids?!'
'IS SHE PREGNANT?'
'You're just doing it for the sex right..'

I seriously can't take everyone's crap. I'm happy....Well kind of, it's just complicated right now I guess. I want to talk to someone and get real adivide. If I talk to my friends they just say 'yeah' because they don't understand and could careless because they are free from responsibility. If I talk to my dad it's just awkward and it's really not that much help, I mean look at him he has my mom she's a piece of cake.

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After an hour of dozing off in class school ended! But I still have to go to baseball practice. I walked to the locker room and got changed in to a T-shirt, shorts, and sneakers. I met up with Connor and we began running because that's what coach told us to do.

"How's the Mrs. Doing?" Connor asked.

"Haha, were not that far just yet.."

"You excited?" Connor giggled.

"Well in the moment I was, but now that I think of it, it was a bad idea."

"What do you mean?" Connor asked curiously.

"Well you know how I told you about the whole drug situation.."

"Yeah..?" He replied.

"Well she was fine in vacation, she promised not to touch any of it ever again and the last night I go looking for condoms and I find a big bag of drugs.."

"No! What.." Connor gasped.

"Yeah, I flipped out because she really is addicted and I don't think she's in the right mind to take care of herself let alone Ryder. I don't think me dating someone who's addicted is a good thing. It's not good for my mental health."

"Yeah bro, are you guys okay though?" Asked Connor.

"Well I don't know, were okay better than when we first came home."

"What about makeup sex?" Connor asked.

"It did somewhat of a job.. It's pretty much we wake up, get ourselves ready and Ryder, than we drive to school separately, do school, she goes to work, I go to practice, than it go to work, I go home, we eat dinner, I hangout with RJ, give him a bath, put him to bed, we get ready for bed, we lay down than we just have sex. It's not really enjoyable like it's just like masturbating honestly. It does nothing for our relationship, we don't even kiss.."

"Ugh that sucks." Connor groaned.

"This is my everyday life bro, fuck I don't know what to do. Like if she messes up again I don't know what I would do."

"I wouldn't deal with that especially with Ryder, Like he does not deserve that. If I were you I'd pack yours and Ryder's bags and go stay at your moms for a few days till she realizes 'oh shit! My family'"