In the end

Bipolar

      ~Morning~
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I woke up from my alarm at 5am fuck we have to leave today. Wait shit... Where's Josh. Oh wait that's right we had a fight last night and after calling him a billion times he never answered. I hopped in the shower quickly because I need to make a plane soon, plus find my Fiancé.

I got changed in to leggings, a red lace tank top that flows, combat boots and sunglasses just in case I need to hide my crying eyes today. I than put a bunch of moose in my hair and it curled up nicely.

---PHONE---
(Josh)WHAT!!!?
(Me)Excuse me? You need to stop acting like a 2 year old. I'm worried about you where are you?
(Josh)WORRIED? Worried, pshh you don't know what worried is because the last time I checked you should be worrying about yourself.
(Me)Josh you don't even understand..
(Josh)Your a druggie it's not that hard to get
(Me)Josh!
(Josh)I'm over you, us, shit man! How are you going to be able to take care of Ryder you can can barley take care of yourself.
(Me)Right Josh your so right... So I'm leaving and I don't know how your getting your shit because I have the only key
(Josh) I'm going to be there in 5 minutes, were not going to talk because were going to argue, than we will check out, get in a taxi and drive to the airport.
(Me)No! I don't need a play by play.. I'll talk to you if I want too becasue were adults.
(Josh) oh that's coming from you... You know what Fuck it let's be adults see where it gets us.
----END----
I rolled my eyes throwing my phone on the bed. I heard a knock at the door, shit that was fast. I debated opening it, "AMANDA!!" I guess I have to. I opened the door which my bitch face. He stormed in grabbing his suitcase. "Are you ready?" He asked.

"Oh were allowed to talk?"

"Your not acting like an adult Amanda." Josh huffed.

"Excuse me, you just said not to be adults so I'm doing what you say master!"

Josh rolled his eys. "Shut up Amanda.."

"Gladly master!" I said sarcastically.

We walked to the lobby and checked out. I waited in the front and got us a taxi. The whole the ride Josh and I were silent.

We arrived at the airport and we went through the customs. Josh and I were completely silent it was a little over an hour of a process and we did not speak once. Once we finished the customs we began walking to our gate. I have to break the silence.

"I'm going to the bathroom.."

"Okay, I'll wait here." Josh said smiling to me.

What the fuck this kid is more bipolar than females in general. He just screamed about how he's done with me, than gave me the silent treatment, and now he's all nice. What the hell.

I peed quickly than joined Josh again. I grabbed my suitcase and continued walking to our gate.

"Want something to eat?" Josh asked.

"Why are you being nice to me? You just hated me like 5 minutes ago.."

"Well, I will always love you Amanda so it's hard being mad at you even though this is so serious. I love you." Josh said rubbing my back. I jolted away because this is uncomfortable now, he's so bipolar.

"What?" He asked.

"I just don't get this, I'm just still mad over the stuff you said to me I can't get over it that quickly Josh.."

"Your mad at me? I'm the one that should be mad. You promised me you wouldn't do drugs anymore and I was wrong." Josh said teary eyed.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what to do.. I just want to go home and be with my son."

I walked to our gate and sat in the waiting chairs. I cried under my sun glasses for the renaming 30 minutes.

8:00am! Thank god. I walked up to the gate handed the worker my passport and ticket and she let me on. I found my seat and sat down. After a lot of people filled in I saw Josh coming ugh. He sat next to me and I just looked out the window.

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We've been flying for over 2 hours now, and we have a whole other hour to go. As I sat there and watched the clouds and wished for peace, I felt Josh's fingers trail my arm. Goosebumps arose and I felt the hair on my arm stick up. He picked my hand up and kissed. He played with my engagement ring.

"Just remember your my fiancé.. I love you."

I smirked and continued to look at the clouds.

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Finally we just landed in South Carolina. Josh and I got off the plane and went to our baggage claim. We got our suitcases and went outside. We saw Josh's dad waving to us. I got so excited because I want to see Ryder.

"Hey how was it?"

"Good, where's Ryder?" I asked.

"Oh Linda stayed back with him because he took a nap."

"Oh.." I groaned.

"But yeah you guys are engaged?" John asked excited.

"Yeah, we are." I huffed.

"You don't seem happy about that.." Josh stated.

I gave him a what the fuck look. Does he not think anything happened today. "Really?" I asked.

"Amanda do you really want everyone to hear about this. I Thought we were over this."

"Your over it, I'm not.." I said mad. 

"You should be glad that I'm over it!" Josh screamed.

"Hey, hey guys calm down. Let's get in the car." John said.

We got in the Car and I just trembled with emotion. Josh and his dad talked but I stayed silent. It was about a 20 minute ride to our town. So it's somewhat ok. We pulled up to Josh's house and I got so excited to see my baby. Josh and John got the bags out, I thanked them and rolled my suitcase up to Josh's car. "Can you out mine in, I want to get RJ"

"Yeah of course.."

I walked inside the house and I saw Linda holding Ryder while she was cooking.
"Baby!" I screamed. Ryder's face lit up and he had the biggest smile. I took him from Linda and he hugged me.

"Hi baby, what are you doing! Did you miss mommy." He giggled and just was so happy.

"Aww he's so cute, he missed you guys."

"Yeah, thanks so much for watching him." I said hugging her.

"Oh no problem he was a lot of fun to have around."

"He got so big, it's crazy.." I said amazed.

"I know he did. Anyways congrats on the engament."

"Thanks.. It was really nice." I smiled.

I walked outside with Ryder and he went crazy when he saw Josh. "Is that daddy!?"

"Aah!" Ryder shrieked.

"Aw hey buddy! What's up little guy?" Josh asked while taking Ryder and giving him a hug and kiss.

"He got so big babe.." I said giving them both a hug.

"I know.. Anyways thanks babe for giving me a hug, I needed that." Josh smiled.

"Yep."

Josh and I went home and it was so nice being back, but I really miss Jamaica.