Utaites X Reader

Sorry for being imperfect(Kradness x Reader)

"What? Did you actaully think that doing homework is as easy as 'just finish it once and for all'? Did you actually think that mjust because it's an art assignment that I won't feel frustrated about it? You people don't know anything, so what if you say that working to put food on the table is much much harder than just me colouring this piece of paper? You know what? I'm only frustrated because I'm trying to reach your expectations. What's with that look on your faces? Shocked to see me behaving like this? Your most well behaved daughter suddenly lashing out? This is what you people made me into. Want to blame anyone, blame yourseleves." You took your phone, wallet, some cash ,your jacket and stormed out of the house with headphones on, not caring what your parents say.

Its only been 20 minutes since you left your house and you found yourself wondering around. Tired of wondering aimlessly, you went to the park where your childhood was spent.

Looking at the empty swings, empty playground and the ever errie feeling of an empty park with only lights from the fountain to light up the place, you wondered to the playground and sat atop the slides,not wanting to go down. Looking up at the star lit sky, you saw many constellations and tears started beaming your eyes. 'When was the last time they ever thought about me? They only praised me when i reach their expectations so i always tried hard and was at the top. Yet whenever i failed to reach their expectations even by 1/2 a mark, they don't talk to me at all and treat me as if i wasn't there. They never knew what i was going through and will never listen to me anyway. Come to think about it... this is my first time running away isn't it.... at least... i have my blade with me...'

Just as you were about to push yourself off the slide with your sleeves up and scars lined your arms,ready for another, you felt arms slung around you in a thight hug "(Y/n), you're not alone anymore. So drop the blade and look at me" he whispered in your ears as you let go of the razor you held in your hand "h-how did you know i was here and about the blade?" You said between sobs as you turned around to meet his eyes "Why won't you leave me alone?!" You sob-shouted at him as your fringe covered your eyes "because you mean the world to me,(Y/n)" he held you closer and you cried into his chest as he gently patted your back.

He held you until you calmed down then you told him about your fight with your parents, "you know something, (Y/n), your parents called to tell me you ran away, i spent 20 minutes looking for you until i remembered the park we used to play together at,it was here. Do you remember your smile back then? I still remember it, you were so happy then, but now seeing you like this, pains me." the voice said never letting go of you.

Your eyes widened as you heard his mention your parents, never have you thought your parents loved you,you always felt so lonely with only plushies as your companions, even at school, you felt alone, people always surrounded you,they wanted to be your friend,yet you shut them out,thinking that they will only hinder you in getting your results. You were clouded by your forced goals that you never noticed your childhood friend always watching you suffer alone. Whenever he tried to talk to you, you told him to leave.

Yet, now, the one holding you,preventing your suicide attempt was none other than that childhood friend, Kradness. "K-kradness, I'm sorry,sorry failing to notice you for so long, sorry for hurting you even after you've done so much for me, sorry.... for not being able to smile anymore..." you cried even more while still being held by him "(Y/n)..." he pulled you away and you looked up at him,seeing his angry face even through the darkness "Shut up, (Y/n). Of course you are imperfect, of course you can't smile anymore, if i were in your position,i would have already been dead long ago,but yet, you survived this long,you were able to still smile through the pain,even if it was fake, (Y/n), you're not weak, so please, don't be sorry either, you are a strong girl, which is why i fell for you" he leaned in and kissed you on the lips and your tears kept falling even after he pulled apart.

"(Y/n)... sorry...I should go now" just as he was about to stand up, you pulled his collar and returned the kiss "Kradness, thank you"

You smiled even though your tears were still falling and he held you until the fell asleep in his arms. "(Y/n).. I love you, I'll always be here for you, you're no longer alone."

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Was it bad...? Sorry if it was bad... i'm just having a depressed/frustrated moment and this popped into my head so yea... well i hope you at least enjoyed it....

Hopefully the next chapter will be happier... bye!!