Glimpses

Hiding

Hey RJ. Hello there. How are you doing? Parang this whole week nakakasama kita lagi. Those were short moments compared to what I really wished for pero, that's enough. In the meantime.

How should I start? Am I going to start on when I began hiding things to you? Or when I tried to stop my heart from hoping that what you're showing me is not because you only care. But because you also felt something. Like...I don't know...love, perhaps?

Is it too early? Or we're too young to fall in love? I thought I knew myself well but when I become a part of your world, I began doubting myself. Again. In what way, you may ask. Well, first off, there are so many other girls out there. Who am I anyway? Being a loveteam does not necessarily means we need to be together diba? You can like anyone you want. It does not have to be me RJ. But in the deepest part of my heart, I really...really...really...wish that it will be me. Is that too much to ask?

I've never been this confident and you know that I am not. There's this small part of my brain saying that you also harbor the same feelings as I do. Those small gestures. Kisses on my hands, on my cheeks...those kilig moments when we're AlDub. And I am not counting those times that you call me at 7 in the morning, waking me up. Telling me that it's time to be at the baranggay or asking Ate Pat if I have eaten my lunch. I know these things Tisoy and yet, despite their teasings, despite their speculations, despite their chismis, I still doubt everything.

Hey RJ? When do I began hiding things to you? Probably those off-cam moments when you're being extra sweet, I always cover my kilig by saying jokes no? Napipikon ka na ba Shoks? Kapag nagseseryoso ka na, ako naman ang nagbibiro. Natanong mo na ba sa'ken 'yun? Siguro one time, di mo na nga lang naulit. Nasagot ba kita ng maayos? When you're being nice and parang nanliligaw ka na, that's when I start to get nervous. There are so many things going inside my head. Bakit ako? Ano ang nakita mo sa'ken? Marami namang iba d'yan. I have this inkling that probably, I liked you first that's why you're being nice to me and all. You're a gentleman and being sweet means that.

Sometimes, I'm talking to myself about you. No one's forcing you to like me. We can be honest and tell to people that we really are only friends. Pero ba't ganun? Wala namang nagpipilit sa'yong maging extra sweet pero ginagawa mo padin? On-cam or off-cam, you're always like that. You're making me feel like a princess. Bakit? Is it because you are really nice to girls? Because you are a good actor? Or is it really because you wanted to? Because I am different among them all? Because you really like me?

Hey RJ! If I confuses you, I'm sorry for that. Naguguluhan din kasi ako. We're both reaching our dreams. Natatakot akong baka nalilito ka lang din. Baka hind totoo lahat ng nararamdaman nating dalawa. Maybe we're being caught up with all the tukso and kapag nandyan na tayo, tska natin susukuan. I told you before, I'm not ready yet. Pero noon pa 'yun? Ang tagal na pala nung huli kong sinabi 'yon. Are you going to ask me again?

Because RJ, if you do, I already know my answer. The heck with them all. I don't care anymore. Magsabi ka lang, tatakbo na ako. I'm going to offer my hand for you to hold. I'm gonna run as fast as I can. You can follow naman diba? Nagccardio ka kaya! Handa ka na RJ? Tara!

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Nakakaloka. Thanks for reading my one-shots. Minsan gusto kong nasasaktan sarili ko eh. Hahahaha!

Oh hey! I'm thinking of doing an AU. Ala-college? Or highschool? I don't know. Nagiisip pa ako. I'm not done with How Could An Angel Break My Heart yet so I'm planning of finishing that then make a new one. Probably an AU-but let's see.