Through the looking glass

CHAPTER 13 (I have no conscience)

I woke up somewhere I am not familiar with. Sinubukan kong tumayo pero hindi ako makabangon. Parang binabayo ang ulo ko sa sakit at nanlalambot rin ang mga binti ko. Hindi ako masyadong makakilos kasi pakiramdam ko sobrang pagod na pagod ako. Now I remember, I was up for 15 hours dahil ako ang nagcover sa shift ni Trina.

Madilim pero kita ko ang kwarto kung nasaan ako at hindi ito ang kwarto kung saan ako nakatira. Hindi lilac ang mga kurtina kundi navy blue at white. Napabalikwas ako.

Damien. Sht.

Someone moved behind me and it was Damien sleeping soundly. Bakit kami magkatabi? Bakit siya nakayakap sa akin at bakit nakasuot ako ng bathrobe? Bakit ako nanlalambot at bakit wala siyang damit?!

I panicked and I ended up falling from the bed.

"Aray!" I made a noise that woke him up. Bumangon siya at tumambad sa akin ang katawan niyang walang saplot. God his skin against the navy silk is just beyond tempting but this is not a good time to think about that. Ang tanong eh bakit nandito kami sa kwarto niya na magkatabi. Hindi ito gawain ng disenteng babae, lalo na't fiancee ng pinsan niya ang katabi niya.

God Kayla, you are shameless!

Control, Kayla.

"Oh my fcking god! Why are you frigging naked?!" I looked at him and he laughed.

"I sleep naked, Katkat." He stood up showing his glorious abs and turned on the lamp. Lumakad siya palapit sa akin at binangon ako. Di sinasadyang natanggal ang tali ng bathrobe at nakita ko na nakaunderwear lang ako. Agad nagpanic ang kalooban ko.

"Why am I naked?! Did... did we... did we have sex?" I asked while he's still standing in front of me.

"What do you think?" He asked while smiling like an innocent child.

Then he laughed. "God, Katkat. Of course not! Nagpanic ka agad at hindi ko ugaling mang-rape ng kababaihan. I'm a guy who sleeps around but I never raped anyone. You dozed off just because of a mere wine! Nakakatawa man pero totoo."

Umupo siya sa isang leather couch sa tapat ng california king-sized bed sa kwarto niya. He crossed his legs and lit a cigarette. He looks different than the Damien I meet everyday in the hospital at sa Damien na nakita ko noong birthday ni lola.

"Then why am I naked?" I asked.

"You were complaining that it's too hot so i helped you. Aaminin ko, I was tempted to touch you but I never did. You were ravishing, Katkat. May kakaiba sayong pamilyar na hindi ko maipaliwanag. I mean, I barely know you but you feel so familiar." Then he exhaled smoke.

"I... have to go home." I told him.

"Ngayon pa? Madaling araw na, kaya matulog ka na dito. Pinadala ko sa laundry shop ang damit mo at pinabilhan kita ng underwear kaya sabay na tayo pumasok bukas. May seminar ka about Zika, right? Isasabay na kita. 12nn ka pa naman, so let's just sleep, okay? I'm sorry if I embraced you while sleeping. I just couldn't help myself from doing it." He smiled at grabbed a tiny blanket on the couch and positioned himself to sleep.

Nakahiga na siya at nakatalikod sa akin.

"Don't worry, hindi kita gagapangin kahit gusto ko, Katkat. I need to have your consent. So for now, just sleep it off and start anew. Good night." And he stopped speaking.

"Wait. So you wanna... do things to me?! God, you're a fcking pervert!" I hysterically said.

He turned around and faced me.

"Oo, I am a fcking pervert and i lured you here, but guess what, I can't do it. I can't touch you. You are so pure it kills me. It kills me, Kayla. It kills me, Katherine Lane and I don't know why, Katkat. Every time you're near, I feel like burning in hell, but I don't care." He looked at me like he's trying to read my face.