"He's outside." Sabi lang ni Mark. Lalo akong kinabahan. Jake is finally ready to talk to me after what I did. I actually can't blame if he ever reject me.
I traumatized him. Syempre, sino ba naman ang masisiyahan kung may isang taong nagtangkang magpakamatay dahil sayo?
Wala.
I will understand him, if ever that happens. Right now, ayoko na munang maging negative. Gusto ko munang umasa. Gusto ko munang mangarap na magiging maayos din ang lahat.
Sobrang kinakabahan ako.
"I don't know what to do, Mark. Kinakabahan ako. I hope he still wants me." He smiled and picked up the hair brush on the drawer.
"Oo naman." He brushed my hair until it looks shiny and healthy.
Nakakatawa, mas naisip ko pa ang itsura ng mukha ko, kahit alam kong puro pasa ang buong katawan ko. Well, the face actually reflects the person you talk to.
"Should I tie my hair? Feeling ko para akong multo kapag nakalugay. Mark, parang bumibilis ang heart rate ko." He just smiled.
"Sige, itali mo na lang ang buhok mo. You look... really sick in that hair. Wait, may goma yata dito sa white coat ko. Nakabundle kasi kanina yung mga syringe kaya tinanggal ko." He searched his white pocket and found a red rubber band.
"Here. Tie your hair." Itinali ko agad ang buhok ko. I looked at the reflection on my phone. Kahit anong tali ko, mukha pa din akong zombie.
The cuts and bruises on my face still look fresh kahit tatlong linggo na ako dito sa ospital.
"Makeup? I need to conceal the marks-"
"Nah, maganda ka na, Kayla. These are battle wounds and they're beautiful. You don't have to cover them up. These things all over your body show how much lucky you are to be alive. Mahal ka niya. Just bear that in mind."
"Thank you, Mark. Sobra. Kung wala kayo, malamang wala na ako. I didn't know what to do. I'm a messed up fuck. You all picked up my fragments, and I will always be thankful for that."
"Don't mention it, Kayla. Just be happy and live your life to the fullest. Embrace all of it. Nandito lang kami para suportahan ka." Nagsisimula na akong maluha nang pisilin ni Mark ang pisngi ko.
"Tama na nga ang kaka-drama mo dyan. The prince is already here. Nandyan na siya labas kaya 'wag ka nang umiyak." Niyakap ko nang mahigpit si Mark.
"Thank you talaga beks."
"You're welcome." He kissed me on the head and walked away. He opened the door and let him in.
Lumabas siya at pumasok na nga si Jake. He's thinner and it seems like he hasn't shaved for weeks. He got dark circles under his eyes and he looks tired.
His lips are dry, halos nagsusugat na nga sa tuyo. He's really pale. Is this because of me? Am I responsible for this?
He took off his black hoodie, hangs it on the chair and sat on my bed. He gently touched my hand. His hand is ice-cold.
He just smiled.
"How... how are you?" Tanong niya. God, I missed that raspy voice. Sobra kong na-miss si Jake. Yes, it's undeniably true. Pati nga panaginip ko siya ang laman.
"Fine, except... I look ugly in this hospital gown." I giggled. He just smiled at me.
"I hate hospitals, Katherine. Sa totoo lang, ayoko talaga sa amoy ng ospital. Ayoko rin na may nakikitang pasyente na isinusugod sa ER. Especially, you. I saw you." He started to break down. His voice broke and all I did was to stare at the tears streaming down his face
BINABASA MO ANG
Through the looking glass
Romance(Medical series #3) Kayla is known as Katherine Lane Ramirez and she is the lost heiress of a multinational shipping company owned by the aristocratic Donya Aurora Buenviaje. She ran away and now that she's back, someone is ready to steal her heart...
